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New Mission 101

Rumi: Joy Inside
I've done several Mission 101s since I first heard about it, including several personal lists and a farm-specific list. With the exception of maybe the first one, I've fallen off the wagon and failed pretty miserably. Not this time! I am motivated & dedicated this time. I'm spreading it out less and trying to focus on five specific areas for improvement that I feel I should dedicate some serious quality time to.

For those unfamiliar with mission101, it is a list of 101 goals you plan to accomplish in 1001 days.

Start Date: Monday, June 9, 2014
End Date: Monday, March 6, 2017

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Whole30 Check-In: Day 4

Psych: Pineapple
I discussed my new Whole30 food challenge here. I'm only 4 days in, and I'm already seeing great results!

I've had a problem with losing 3 pounds one week and gaining them right back the next week. This has been going on for a while, even before I started the local weight loss challenge 6 weeks ago. I missed the weigh-in last week because the place was closed early for the weekend when I showed up Thursday. Well, I had pretty much expected to be about the same weight if pattern held. I would have lost 3 the week I missed and gained it right back this week. But no! I found out that I lost 7 pounds, which blasts through (with room to spare) my 'You'll never see below this weight again' barrier. I'm so excited! Even though it's only day 4, I think I have to give a lot of credit to Whole30. I've been trying to get back below that ever since I had Maya, and it's finally happened. I hope it continues!

So here is how things have gone so far this week. I started on Monday, May 12. I discussed all my prep work in that earlier post. You can see my planned menu here in the mealplanning community.

Day 1: Monday - Felt fabulous all day! Great energy, and the day flew by super quickly.

B: Chicken salad made with shredded chx & ½ avocado (this is my new favorite thing ever!); steam/sautéed veggies (since I didn't get my zucchini soup made); coffee with almond milk.

Sn: Skipped the snack, as they are not recommended on Whole30. I had them just in case. I was still full from breakfast, and while I did get hungry in the morning as I usually do, it wasn't until 30 mins before my lunch break, so it was manageable. I just learned to add a bit more veggies next time.

L: Steak salad w/kalamata olives; hibiscus tea

Sn: Another small helping of avocado chicken salad. Could have done without, but I didn't realize that my dinner recipe needed to simmer 2 hrs, putting my lunch at 10:50 and dinner at 7:30.

D: Chocolate chili

Day 2: Tuesday - NO ENERGY WHATSOEVER. Felt so lethargic all day. Possible sugar crash/detox.

B: Salsa egg scramble with carrot & zucchini (since I did not get my crockpot done the night before). Coffee w/almond milk.

Sn: I was very hungry just after 1st break, so I snuck a handful of cashews.

L: Tuna-Avocado Nori Wrap (yum!)

Sn: Grabbed an all-natural fruit leather for a pick-me-up in the afternoon, as I was so lethargic that I feared I'd never make it through work. It helped, but that's not a habit I plan to get into. Just to help with the detox slump.

D: Taj Mahal Chicken w/spaghetti squash (I liked it all right, but family hated it)

Day 3: Wednesday - battling bouts of nausea all day

B: 2 hardboiled eggs; almost-half avocado w/olive oil, sea salt, & crushed red pepper; filled plate with steam/sautéed veggies since I had been too tired the night before to make my slaw.

L: Tiny chicken breast; salad w/avocado (added a hardboiled egg since the chx cooked down so small)

D: Asian meatballs; organic mushroom marinara sauce; green beans. Loved the asian meatballs, but trying them w/marinara (Josh's idea) was not swell. I didn't like the organic sauce I'd bought, but I had a big helping of seconds without them.

Day 4: Thursday - had to take an emergency doctor visit with Ivy

B: Luckily I had emergency food prepped, so I grabbed 2 hardboiled eggs and threw them in the tupperware with the rest of my steam/sautéed sugar snap peas (so fantastic!) and some green & red bell pepper.

L: Had Applebee's while we were out, so this was a challenge, but I feel it was a successful one! Don't remember the name of the dish, but it was 2 4-oz sirloins with caramelized onions, red pepper, and mushrooms. Technically they were caramelized in whiskey, which is against the rules, but it cooks out and I felt comfortable with it considering that I'd also messed up and added my customary secret ingredient to my salsa the other day. I still feel that I'm on-track. Oh, and had a side of steamed broccoli with lemon since I can't do potatoes.

Sn: We cut up a watermelon today, so I had two helpings of salted watermelon! I forget how much I love that stuff til we finally have it again.

D: Carnitas, sweet potato. Weird combo, but I found pork on sale while out & decided that's how I should use up the rest of my salsa since I can't mow on it with chips. I'd eaten all of my other emergency veggies, except the bell pepper – which is in carnitas, so I ate the sweet potato that should have been part of my breakfast this morning if I'd stuck around the house to fix it.


My legs have been really sore today, but otherwise, my energy levels are back up and I feel really great. I got a whole lot of motivation and validation learning that I finally lost a significant amount of weight. I came home and cooked up the leftover meatball mixture and put together a frittata for breakfast tomorrow since I'd really wanted one but missed it. I'll be having leftover meatballs instead of the planned gyro dish since that made more than I'd expected and needs to get ate up. At least I'm learning about the menu and how much it takes to fill up my body. I'll be able to plan better with week 2, I think.



Psych: Pineapple
I've decided to start the Whole30 program tomorrow. This is a mostly-paleo dietary cleanse that eliminates most problem foods from your diet for 30 days. Sugar, grains, soy, potatoes, MSG, etc. I've decided to do this instead of fasting again as I'd planned, since it's been so long since I've fasted.

Switching to real foods and cutting out junk will be good for me. I've had too many health problems since I had Maya, and they're only getting worse. Despite being in a weight loss challenge, I cannot lose this babyweight. I keep losing & gaining the same 3 pounds. Still addicted to pepsi and have a tendency to binge on chips, pasta, or other carbs. So I will cut them all out, get back to healthy foods, keep a food diary while I do this, and determine what kinds of foods affect me how and what my emotional triggers are (anger and stress for sure).

I've been a busy little bee today! First, I did some healthy shopping this weekend. Had to travel to Rolla to get the memorial tree (we finally laid mom's ashes to rest this weekend - more on that probably coming another time), so I picked up a few hard-to-find items at the health food store while out there. Priced other hard-to-find items that I couldn't countenance spending this weekend. Then I made a meal plan that I am quite proud of (which you can see here:, and I sent Josh to the store for a few items I realized I needed after finding better recipes than what I'd considered.

I did SO MUCH prep today, but that will help me stick with it. Here's what I did to prepare for Week 1:

- Made homemade veggie broth
- Made homemade beef broth
- Made salsa (I messed up here! I added my customary secret ingredient – shhhh – of tequila before I remembered that alcohol was a no-no! But I haven't had my delicious salsa in far too long, so I didn't scrap it. Won't hurt much.)
- Made Soy Sauce Substitute (Technically this one is cheating as well, because it has molasses, but the added sugar comes out to 1.5 g per serving, and I felt having decent flavors to switch things up was essential to my success. And a lot of their healthy sauce suggestions just cost way too much money.)
- Made Paleo-Mayo - I used this recipe because coconut oil & EVOO were the only approved oils that I had in the house, but I definitely see why they say to use light olive oil instead of EVOO. It's way strong. Will have to get light olive oil next time.
- Steam/Sautéed carrots, zucchini, snap peas, and green and red bell peppers to have on hand as needed.
- Boiled up a batch of Perfect Hard Boiled Eggs, which worked fabulously on our Americauna (green) eggs but no so swell on our Buckeye and Welsummer eggs (the brown ones) even though they were not fresh.
- Cooked up 3 chicken breasts for recipes and 'emergency protein'. Was also supposed to do sausage, but that didn't work out. I'm ready and can't wait for my chicken/avocado salad for breakfast in the morning!

I also bought several organic teas and restarted my water kefir. The grains have been in the freezer for just over a year, so I hope they're still alive!

I'm really excited about this new challenge! I have a couple of friends who are thinking of doing it with me, and I'd love buddies if anyone is interested! I'll keep you posted on how it goes.

Writing Filter, Go!

Psych: Pineapple
My WonderSaga post is HERE, for those who would like to follow along with me making that actually work. If you can't see it and would like to, please let me know & I'll add you to my writing filter when I get home from work this evening.



TWD: Maggie/Glenn

Hello! Long time no update. I now have Chapter 10 (Dead London) added to my Supernatural/The Walking Dead crossover.

Title: What We Become: A Supernatural/Walking Dead Crossover

Author: Ahavah

Fandoms: Supernatural/The Walking Dead (TV) -- may have some influence from TWD comics in later chapters.

Rating: PLEASE NOTE: I have changed the rating from "Not Rated" to "Mature"

Warnings: Spoilers for TWD through Season 3 and SPN through Season 6. THIS CHAPTER (10) includes a TRIGGER WARNING for brief mentions of domestic violence and canonical childhood sexual assault as Bela/Maggie explains her past to Glenn in the opening scene. Use ctrl+F to search for the first '#' scene break if you want to avoid this scene.

Pairings: (This chapter - 10:) Maggie/Glenn

Characters: (This Ch:) Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Bobby Singer, Castiel, Maggie Greene/Bela Talbot, Glenn Rhee, Balthazar

Summary: (This Ch:) To keep her past as Bela Talbot hidden from her father, Maggie (with Glenn in tow) accompanies the Winchester brothers to England to hunt down the bones of the demon who cut her deal.

Chapter 1 I Chapter 2 I Chapter 3 I Chapter 4 I Chapter 5 I Chapter 6 I Chapter 7 I Chapter 8 I Chapter 9 I Chapter 10

Bringing Back LJ

Rumi: Joy Inside
A couple of friends and I have resolved to do our parts to breathe some life back into livejournal. LJ is too awesome to give up on. Care to join us in our pledge to resume real, quality activity here? I'll add you to our pledge list if you like, and we can all help & support each other! (If you don't want new friends or just don't want on this list, let me know.)

ahavah - Yours Truly
jeweledpen - long-ago LJ-er with a brand new account
moonstone_fae - very long-time friend

So with that in mind, here is a fairly brief update on what's been going on in my little corner of the world:

  • Working two jobs has been absolutely killing me. I am tired, unhealthy, and have no time for anything that matters to me. The house has fallen apart, I rarely see the kids anymore, and I am absolutely incapable of writing anymore (which, honestly, ties back into that health thing). I had thought that my second job would become full-time and I could quit the factory, but this is not going to happen. In fact, they keep flaking on me, so I put in my notice last week. Writing will officially become my second job, and I am fully resolved to make it a priority and a real career.

  • To that end, I recently attended my very first writers' conference! It went so very well. The conference came with a free pitch session. Josh thought I should pitch The Dragon Alliance, but I have felt my WonderSaga (tentative new working title: The Akuparan Anomaly) yelling in my ear that it was time to pursue it. So that is the one I'm focusing on! We actually weren't supposed to pitch unfinished projects, but one of the agents urged us to do so while we had the chance. The agent I had really hoped to pitch was full, so I signed up for a pitch session with an editor at a small St. Louis press. And, to my extreme delight, he wants to see the full manuscript when it's finished! Not only that, but we had only 5 mins to pitch, and he was so interested that he told me to stay so he could ask a few more questions about it. It made my weekend!

    Only then my entire month was made when I had some awesome interactions with the agent I had originally hoped to pitch with. We sat at the same table at dinner, and I introduced myself. I wasn't thinking to weasel a pitch, but I merely expressed delight at getting to meet her and lamented how popular she was since I couldn't get a session with her. She goes, “Well, what's your novel about? That's what I'm here for!” I had just enough time to mention that it was a science fantasy, and she did mention that she doesn't do much with sci-fi or fantasy, but she has some other agents in her agency (of which she is the president) who might be interested. They chose that very moment to shush everyone for the keynote speech to begin! When she was called away a bit later, I knew my chance was lost. But wait! She was several people ahead of me in the lunch line the next day, noticed me, and either remembered my name or has great eyesight to read the name tag, because she called me up to join her and pitch my novel while we plated our food. And she wants to see the first 100 pages! I explained that I planned another good revision after everything I learned at the conference, but I will definitely be sending them along when I'm done.

  • Also along those lines, I am now very seriously revising my WonderSaga drafts. Very seriously. I will be posting a lot on my writing filter, and I have a lot of things that I would love to discuss and get quality input on, both from my professional writing buddies and just people who love to read. If you're not on my writing filter and would like to follow the progression of my goal to elevate myself from life-long fun writer to honest-to-goodness professional writer, or if you would like to help with my brainstorming and feedback as to how to make my scifi/fantasy mash-up as strong, compelling, and professional as it could possibly be – quickly – then please let me know, and I will happily add you. Look for the first post coming very soon!

  • On a more personal note, but my only other really big news to share, another “NOW IS THE TIME” moment hit me just the other day. This year is the 'clone' year for mom's accident. Wedding (anniversary, now) fell on Friday the 9th, we pulled the plug on the 10th, and my wonderful Momma died on Mother's Day, May 11th, 2008. It has been six years, and I have finally healed enough that I feel I can maybe handle it as a very healing weekend instead of a replay of soul-shattering grief. I still have not been able to do anything with her things or her ashes. So this Mother's Day weekend, I will be holding a memorial for her and finally scattering her ashes.

    As she always said, “Just plant me under a tree!”, that is what I'll be doing. Not sure what kind yet, but I thought I'd take the girls to help pick one out. I've invited any family that is willing to come out to my place to join us. My sister wants me to plant a flower with some ashes for her, and hopefully one day she'll come out to get it. Doubtful, but it will be there if she does. I will plant another for my other sister, even though I once again cannot get ahold of her. But I have long wanted to build a memorial meditation garden for mom. I don't have time to plan it all out in the next few weeks, but we'll plant a tree and two potentially-transplantable flowers in a nice circle big enough for a bench or two to sit and meditate. And when I'm better able to research and plan it out properly, I'm going to build a labyrinth around it, so her memorial spot sits at the center. That's been something I've really wanted to do since we bought this farm and named it The Grateful Stead in her honor. (Yes, it's a deadhead play on words, but it's mostly because of mom.)

    I am actually excited about this. I still anticipate a very hard time with that weekend, but I'm also very excited about this.
Supernatural: Cas people skills
Title: What We Become: A Supernatural/Walking Dead Crossover

Author: Ahavah

Fandoms: Supernatural/The Walking Dead (TV) -- may have some influence from TWD comics in later chapters.

Rating: Not Rated (Given the canons, err on the side of 'Adult')

Warnings: Spoilers for TWD through Season 3 and SPN through Season 6. Cursing, violence, eventual smut, other canon-appropriate shenanigans.

Pairings: Bobby/Jody, Glenn/Maggie, Sam Winchester/Sasha (subtext), mentions of Rick/Lori, Dean/Lisa, and Beth/Zach

Characters: (These Chapters - 4 & 5:) Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Daryl Dixon, Michonne, Glenn Rhee, Sasha, Tyreese, Castiel, Samuel Campbell, Rick Grimes, Zach, Carol Peletier, Beth Greene, Carl Grimes, Hershel Greene, Lori Grimes, Dr. Subramanian (Dr. S), Ms. McLeod, Gabriel, Raphael, Naomi, Kali

Summary: Ch. 1-3: After crossing paths with the Winchester brothers, Daryl Dixon is turned into a vampire. He must help the brothers find their grandfather, Samuel Campbell, who has the cure.

Ch. 4-5: The Winchester brothers agree to check out the prison and investigate Lori's ghost under the pretext (mostly) of holding Hunter 101 training.

Ch. 6: Judith takes ill, and Rick struggles as he realizes that Lori's ghost needs to be vanquished.

Ch. 7: The boys head back to their safehouse - with a few guests and a couple of pit stops on the way.


Set following TWD season 3 (after Woodbury but before Season 4 picks up) and an alternate SPN season 6 where the main apocalypse was still thwarted but Pestilence succeeded in releasing the Croatoan virus "swine flu vaccine".

CONTAINS SPOILERS for both Supernatural and The Walking Dead tv show. I'm focusing mainly on the show, but I'm a fan of TWD comics and may eventually incorporate storylines &/or characters from those as well.

Chapter 1 I Chapter 2 I Chapter 3 I Chapter 4 I Chapter 5 I Chapter 6 I Chapter 7

*Pokes Livejournal*

Achaiah BW
Man, lj is like a sinking ship lately. NOOOOO! I still love it here. I love interaction, real discussion, and the absence of a like button or hashtags.

I've been trying to revive one of the communities I mod, energy_healers, for a couple of weeks now. It's still mostly dead in there. But as we all know, there's a big difference between mostly dead and all dead, so I remain optimistic. I know I have many healer friends here. Please consider joining us and adding life to the discussion! Or perhaps even adding a post to the community that is not my own...

I'm doing well with my daily commitment (no jinxes!) to my yearofpoetry community, so I'm proud of that, but we still hardly have any members. I've sent out a couple rounds of invites to users with "poetry" listed as an interest, but not a single one has accepted the invite. I so want this community to thrive. Any tips? If you like poetry and chose not to join, how come? I'm good with constructive criticism. How do I get this thing to take off?

It's not just LJ, though. My Kushiel RPG reboot has not been as successful as I'd hoped. We kind of had hiatus during NaNo, and I fear that killed it. Right when I finally got all of the admin paperwork/set up stuff completely and totally finished, too! I want to start advertizing it places. Any suggestions? I was going to contact J.Carey and let her know it was back up and running, see if she'd put a good word in, and then she JUST shared a link for another kushiel-based RPG on her facebook page the other day. Beaten to the punch! And all of these other groups are just teeming with members and activity. I find it a bit discouraging, but I'm not giving up.

So please check them out, join up, and jump right in if any of these speak to you. Or please feel free to give suggestions on how to make them more inviting/successful. I used to be a pretty decent mod. I wonder if I'm not providing what people are looking for or if I've just chosen dead/unappealing platforms to host them on.


Year of Poetry

Kushiel: Eglantine Quill
Beginning tomorrow, I will be embarking on a 'Year of Poetry' journey. I would love partners to share this with! If you love poetry, or even if you know nothing about it and would like to learn, please check out my new community, yearofpoetry!

It's kind of lonesome in there right now, so please feel free to share with like-minded friends and communities. Thank you!


WonderSaga: Torus
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