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Found Dogs Update:

After keeping them two days, we began to notice some medical problems that needed dealt with. I emailed back everyone who contacted me, apologizing for wasting their time and explaining why we didn't feel it was in good conscience to give them out on a free site. None of the rescues would help us, so we ended up taking them (just about an hour ago) to the Humane Society. They were our last option, due to their use of euthanasia, but they are professionals who promised to give them medical care, work on the female's aggression, and try to make them placeable. The first 72 hours will be care only, and then they'll try to place them. They say the male should find a home quickly, as sweet as he is, and the female should be easy to place if they can get her over her aggression.

Thanks for all your help and prayers! I feel much better knowing professionals are taking care of these pups.

Also, if you just happen to be coming by from my email sig link - stop getting pissy that I won't give you the dogs. We have their best interests at heart. When you take it personally and cop a tude, it makes us all the more certain that you do not.



LiveJournal/Cyberworld Update:

I've found old "friends" and contacts dating from over ten years ago. I'm carrying around years-old emails from ex-boyfriends and ex-crushes. This weekend I am doing a TOTAL cyber clear out. If I haven't heard from you recently (oh, say since my personal shit began hitting the fan), then I will be removing you from my cyber life.

If you really want to stay, let me know. It's all cool.

{Also, since it's come up: If you're one of the somehow innumerable friends who are either getting married or have a mother in dire condition, I hope you know that I love you and am squeeing/praying for you as appropriate. I still find it hard to find words, so I haven't really been commenting. That's not because I don't care; it's because I care too much.}

Anyways, I'm letting it all go. It's nothing personal at all. I've realized I'm carrying around massive cyber baggage and it will all be culled...



Real World Update:


...in anticipation of a very important releasing & healing ceremony I have planned for my mom's birthday. I've gotten steadily worse, and I'm going to reclaim control of my life.

If I disappear, it's only til I feel better. I considered scrapping everything and starting new, but I just shelled out a pretty penny to get a permanent account. So yeah, I'm here permanently. Breaks are good though. We'll see how it goes.

So if I seem irky, callous, or have dropped you from IM or networking sites and broken your heart, I'm awfully sorry. I'm just trying to give myself a fresh start for the new year.

As always, if you want to leave first, feel free. I know I suck lately.

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ahavah
Dec. 18th, 2008 07:47 pm (UTC)
You're still a new friend! I'm having fun getting to know all my new buds. I more meant, like, deleting my exes (I've been with Josh for 8 yrs, sheesh!) and all the folks I've been holding onto because we used to be friends.
dodging_fate
Dec. 18th, 2008 07:48 pm (UTC)
*sending you love*

ahavah
Dec. 18th, 2008 07:49 pm (UTC)
*soaks deeply*

*sends back - after filling up ;)*
dodging_fate
Dec. 18th, 2008 07:49 pm (UTC)
:)
sunlit_mists
Dec. 18th, 2008 07:58 pm (UTC)
We don't talk much, but I'd like to stay... Your posts fill me with light when they are good, and give me somewhere to send mine when they are not.

:)
ahavah
Dec. 18th, 2008 08:24 pm (UTC)
Aw, thank you so much! I'll try to get better at commenting. I used to be good. I do read most of your posts, when I'm not avoiding LJ entirely.
specieszero
Dec. 18th, 2008 08:08 pm (UTC)
I don't always comment, but I do always read.
ahavah
Dec. 18th, 2008 08:30 pm (UTC)
I'm the same way, especially lately. I'm glad you've stuck around.
dragynflies
Dec. 18th, 2008 08:12 pm (UTC)
I know we don't talk a lot but you are in my thoughts.

If you would like a renaming token for Xmas to have a new LJ to start over with, I would love to give you that. Just let me know if that's something you think you'd want.
ahavah
Dec. 18th, 2008 08:32 pm (UTC)
Aw, thanks so much! Yes, I'm horrible for commenting myself lately, but I do always read. (I esp. liked your recent rant about clueless dad...I've just been lazy with replying. Antisocial lately, I guess.)

I appreciate your offer, but I don't want to take that! I'm thinking of figuring out how to make a custom layout. I like the name, even if I haven't been embodying it lately. I suppose it's probably a good reminder of what this journal was supposed to be. Thank you, though!
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ahavah
Dec. 18th, 2008 08:33 pm (UTC)
That's funny. I thought you comment fairly often to me. I've felt guilty for not returning the favor.
lolacat
Dec. 18th, 2008 08:18 pm (UTC)
They are soo cute and Christmas is a big adoption time. I am sure they will be fine and you did the right thing.
ahavah
Dec. 18th, 2008 08:34 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much for saying so! I really didn't want to take them to the H.S., but we found bloody poo all over the shed this morning and decided they needed help asap. They did say that smaller dogs place much easier, and they thought those two would have no problems. I hope so!
merenda
Dec. 18th, 2008 11:01 pm (UTC)
Bloody poo is REAL BAD NEWS. Seriously. Be sure to clean the place with bleach before you let any other animals anywhere near there.... :(

You did the right thing. I've been there so many times myself, I can relate to what you had to do. It's hard every time.

You cared for them, and really, really tried, which is more than most people.

/me sends positive energy
ahavah
Dec. 19th, 2008 07:27 pm (UTC)
Yes, we were quite concerned when we saw that. I'm glad you think we did the right thing, though. Thank you so much!
fierceawakening
Dec. 18th, 2008 11:50 pm (UTC)
Bloody poo? OH NO! I hope they'll be ok :(
maiabee8
Dec. 18th, 2008 08:32 pm (UTC)
I've volunteered with the Humane Society working with animals who were rescued from abusive homes who had aggression issues and just wanted to pipe in with a 'you did the right thing.' Yes, the Humane Society will resort to euthenasia, but only when doing so is the 'humane' thing to do (from my experience). They have lots of professionals and volunteers who care and who have the experience and skills to help those dogs.

Sending happy thoughts to you and your family.
ahavah
Dec. 18th, 2008 08:37 pm (UTC)
That's really a relief to hear! They did tell Josh that they didn't think placing the two dogs would be very hard at all. Even with the female, apparently she didn't growl at Josh and let him handle her around the new people, so that's a big improvement by itself. I'm hoping they just need some more immediate love and attention, and they'll be very blessed. They're lucky so many are praying and rooting for them. Thank you so much!
brihanon
Dec. 18th, 2008 08:49 pm (UTC)
Keep me please, I am reading and sending energy offten even if I'm not writing.
ahavah
Dec. 18th, 2008 08:52 pm (UTC)
Aw, I really appreciate that. Thank you so much! I've definitely been needing the energy, but I hope to start giving back soon.
merenda
Dec. 18th, 2008 11:01 pm (UTC)
I hope you will allow Jacq and I to be a part of your new beginning going forward.

If not we'll just hassle you since you live right down the road. :)

I'll email you separately...
ahavah
Dec. 19th, 2008 07:29 pm (UTC)
Definitely! I'm not dropping the new friends, just the folks I've only been keeping because we *used* to be friends.

I saw you emailed me the other day, and I'm sorry I didn't get back to you! I was well into margarita night and figured it was a bit too soon to drunk email you. :P
merenda
Dec. 19th, 2008 08:29 pm (UTC)
I've been there a few times. :)

No worries!
qilora
Dec. 18th, 2008 11:14 pm (UTC)
we love you.
ahavah
Dec. 19th, 2008 07:32 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I love you too. I'm really glad to have met you.
felisdemens
Dec. 19th, 2008 01:00 am (UTC)
Poor dogs. You did your best.
ahavah
Dec. 19th, 2008 07:41 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I'm not a fan of the Humane Society, but I think they'll be better off there.
miintikwa
Dec. 19th, 2008 01:08 am (UTC)
*hugs* You do not suck!

I hope that the new start is good for you!
ahavah
Dec. 19th, 2008 07:47 pm (UTC)
Aw, thanks, but I kinda do! LOL It's all right, I can own it. I'm glad you think differently, though. Thank you!
miintikwa
Dec. 19th, 2008 08:15 pm (UTC)
You're welcome!
8)
kali_kali
Dec. 19th, 2008 02:14 am (UTC)
Please keep me! I'm doing your genealogical research and all that :) I'm probably crap at commenting, but I'll try harder now that I'm back in the swing of things with LJ.
ahavah
Dec. 19th, 2008 07:48 pm (UTC)
You're silly.

And thank you, I didn't figure you were doing anything with that since your big trip! I'm sorry I've been a crap commenter, too.
muse0fire
Dec. 19th, 2008 05:43 am (UTC)
Going through my own shit, and thus not posting much - but am still reading your posts and hope you'll keep me on.

Wishing both of us a better new year...
ahavah
Dec. 19th, 2008 07:49 pm (UTC)
I'm awfully sorry to hear you're having it rough, too. I'd definitely like to keep you. I like you! I hope your new year is everything fantastic in the world.
tattoosfade
Dec. 19th, 2008 06:41 am (UTC)
you do NOT suck lately. take your time. I'll be around. xo
ahavah
Dec. 19th, 2008 07:50 pm (UTC)
Well thanks, but I do at least some. I've been in quite an irky mood. I'm glad you think differently, though.
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ahavah
Dec. 19th, 2008 07:51 pm (UTC)
Of course you're not going any where! If you did, I might hunt you down and whoop your ass. You're family to us, too, and I'm quite honored that you feel that way about me!
angelofmysoul
Dec. 19th, 2008 01:37 pm (UTC)
Ok, I don't always comment, but you in no way suck! Who ever made you feel like that needs a good kick in the drawers... and if it's you that made you feel like that you need a hug! dang it.
ahavah
Dec. 19th, 2008 08:00 pm (UTC)
Well, it's my own self that made me feel that way, though I'm honored that you feel differently. I'll always take hugs, though. Thank you!
times_suspended
Dec. 19th, 2008 03:48 pm (UTC)
You know. Thank you for this entry. I went through last night and deleted old pictures of questionable nature (what were they? Trophies or something?) of ex-boys (some circa 2002, for gosh sakes), old emails, and de-friended some journals, a few of which haven't been updated since the beginning of 2007.

Very cathartic.

Much love.

ahavah
Dec. 19th, 2008 08:02 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I'm tired of seeing Josh's ex-girlfriend every time she signs online, and then I accidentally stumbled upon old emails from the doula bitch that pissed me off so badly - back when she was pretending to be friendly. I've also been hanging on to old letters from folks just because I hope we'll eventually be friends again, that kind of thing...can't be healthy.

Much love to you, too!
dorianeldritch
Dec. 20th, 2008 04:29 am (UTC)
((HUGS)) I'd like to stay, but I am not on very much and don't often comment even when I am so I understand if you don't want to keep me.
Either way I hope things get better for you soon-I've been told one of the things reiki can do is accelerate your movement toward enlightenment, which apparently from my own experience means crunching more disturbing stuff into shorter periods of time. I guess its good in getting it out of the way but ugh!:-/
ahavah
Dec. 20th, 2008 04:42 am (UTC)
Hm, that's a nice perspective, and one I may try to integrate.

I would just like to say that I'm glad you're still around! Thank you for your kindness.
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