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Artist's Way un-check-in

I haven't been on top of the Artist's Way this week, since I've been really sick. Hardly done morning pages at all, haven't had a real writer's date (I did design my 'Working Title' world), and haven't done any of the tasks. I'm feeling mildly better today. I'll try to catch up after work and eventually do a check-in, but I'm behind schedule.

I'm extremely sad & depressed that my Kushiel RPG is dead. I think this has affected my motivation to write. I even sent out a note yesterday telling folks to save their files as I'd be deleting the group after New Year's, and not a single person responded. I flogged the shit out of that dead horse. Me & a few folks had awesome plot ideas we wanted to explore, and then they just stopped responding. If any Kushiel fans would like to come in and help breathe life into it and save it, please let me know. If not, I think I will be done with RPGs - and perhaps co-writing entirely - for a long while.

Never worked on 'Working Title' the other day. Just felt too bad, plus I got into a bit of a tiff with a couple people and that distracted me. I'm hoping to at least START the thing tonight after work. I do usually let ideas percolate for a while, so maybe it will be better for my procrastination. I have to give a huge thanks to lessthan90sheep for reading over my winding brainstorming and giving me some feedback on that. My cuz still hasn't answered, so having someone to bounce around ideas with really helped and stoked the motivational fire. The fact that a few of you have poked me and asked how it's going has also been a huge help. I will do my best to write a short story tonight. At least start the one that's been floating around in my head.

The kids are also working on reading & writing lately. I keep leaving notes for them at night, and Eden sometimes leaves me notes back in my bed. Mostly we fight over whether turtles moo (They do. One does, at least, for certain. I highly suspect that the rest do, and it's just too quiet for human ears.) and whether tigers eat turtles/mom/dad.

That's about all I've got going on in the creativity department lately. Hopefully I'll have a better report after I catch up on AW.

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ahavah
Dec. 29th, 2010 05:00 pm (UTC)
I guess, but at least there was a lot of discussion there and people trying to save it. I do think the main problem was such a huge jump, so that peoples' characters had to change so drastically or make new ones. Hell, it's been almost two years in this one, and we'd only just started exploring the second storyline. It took that long to wrap up with the first one. There were all these people saying they're interested offlist and on the OOC list, but they just don't want to post. It's so frustrating. I think I just didn't have active enough mods to help. It just won't live if I'm the only one trying to post and respond to people. :( I keep thinking, if I hadn't taken a hiatus for NaNo, it would have lived. Oh well.

I have not seen the new Sherlock Holmes yet. Seems to have created a rather immediate fandom though, so maybe I should find it.
sidelong
Dec. 29th, 2010 05:55 pm (UTC)
I'm really sorry the Kushiel RPG didn't work out. I think it was already winding down by the time I joined, but I didn't post as frequently as I could have, either. :( It was harder to integrate a new character than I'd thought--I couldn't really think of any good plot stuff, and then with work/travel/kitty drama, I guess I just let it slide.

It doesn't reflect on you as a moderator. I think the issue may have been that there was only one of you seriously trying to get the game going, but in the end it's a group effort. I hope it doesn't discourage your private writing, because in the group I thought you were definitely one of the better writers. :)
ahavah
Dec. 29th, 2010 11:19 pm (UTC)
Aw, well thank you! I'm glad you think so. I'd actually thought that, before NaNo, I'd done pretty well with getting the group more active again. I really thought things had improved, and having a couple of new members really excited me. I do wish you guys had posted, and I kept trying to get people involved. I'd tag folks and leave open tags, trying to make sure everyone had an opportunity. I begged folks to discuss character story arcs with me offlist and try to work in some good plots for everyone. No one else seemed to care though. It was my favorite group, too. I've really been upset about it. I think it's hormones, but yeah, pretty broken hearted. Had to stop myself from crying over it, which I know is silly for an RPG. I don't mean to rage. :(
catku
Dec. 31st, 2010 12:43 am (UTC)
It's strange but I did RL RPG (not larp) and then transitioned to an online version with a server and chat and audio from the GM (my husband) and built in imaging and realized why I could never do written RPG other than in email interactions. IT'S HARD! Writing takes a lot of time and energy and consistency.

If I had any talent in writing Kushiel's would be the RP I would love beyond loving but again so much time to do it right and the pressure of not meeting the groups standards...ugh.

I applaud you for doing it for however long you have. I couldn't.

(suddenly missing my old Kushiels icons from my other account).

That which yields is not weak

ahavah
Dec. 31st, 2010 04:11 am (UTC)
I'm not sure what you're describing, so it sounds hard! lol

Well, to be honest, some of the casual players we've had weren't exactly on the level I would have hoped, but I was always glad to let anyone in who was passionate about it and understood the rules. It's pretty easy to meet our standards. There is one member who has spoken up & is really wanting to save the group, so if you think you might be interested, please let me know. I had been ready to move on, but she's so sweet about it that it's got me going "Well..." I don't know. But I hated to see it go, so if you'd like to peek at it and see, let me know.

I don't have that particular quote, but if you want any of my kushiel icons, please feel free. I didn't make all of them, but I should have them all credited, I think.
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