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Me in a Ginormous Nutshell

I debated over whether to make this short, sweet, and nice or raw, unfettered truth. Well, if I'm going to do this thing, then I'll do it all the way. Plus, it's much more gratifying that way. And you should know what you're getting into up front. You wanna meet the real me now?

Ahavah_Ehyeh: My username translates to “Love_I Am”. I found them in a list of the Names of God years ago. It was what I strove to be. I named my journal “This Path” because I am just sharing my path, and I think we learn from those we see along the way. I share, but I don't proselytize.

Me: Amanda, 27 years old, Female, Married, two daughters: Eden (5 and a half) & Ivy (3), Dog: Achaiah (8), Cat: Cinder (a couple months). I'm fantastic.

LJ: I'll probably clean up my friends list and communities soon, as I've only recently returned to the internet. I haven't been able to keep up with it at all, but that's changing. Still, I only add folks who introduce themselves and let me know they've added me. I love making new friends! Just have trouble keeping up with them all.

Label-y Identification Blurb: writer, Medicine Reiki Master, birth doula, homeschooling housewife, newlywed, hippie deadhead, spiritualist, Unitic, kinky, switch, southern belle, snark-master, supreme ruler of all existence

Writes: nonfiction, poetry, spec fic (fantasy, science fiction, alternate history), erotica, fanfic (mostly rpgs). One day I will be a submitter. Well, I've had a few things published but never for real pay.

Fandoms: Kushiel, Firefly, Earth's Children (but not so much lately)

Other Passions: I'm in love with Keller Williams (the musician, not realtor). And Rumi. I'm a struggling Flybaby. I'm on a deadline with my mission101 list.

Favorites: Colors: silver & blue, Song: Ripple (Grateful Dead)/Best Feeling (KW)/Terrapin Station (GD) tie, Author: Orson Scott Card

Edit: I think this is the best post I've ever done

Hates: politics, trolls, country music, liars, anime

Pertinent stuff: I lost my mom in a pretty traumatic way recently. I'm still dealing with a lot of emotional/spiritual/legal stuff from that. It happened during the week Josh and I got married. We got married anyway (friends-only), but we are still planning the “real wedding” because our kids need to be a part of that. It currently takes up quite a bit of focus on my lj. You don't have to read all my other stuff, though it's likely to leak into LJ idol. Just a heads up. I'll try not to be too bleak. Vote for me anyway.

Find Me if You Like Me: Add me, I kick ass



10 Things! I do memes:

1. I've never seen a Woody Allen movie, ever.

2. It bugs the snot out of me that Mexican restaurants don't make carnitas properly.

3. I am one of those crappy people who order things like Venti skim two-pump caramel machiatto with whip. It's embarrassing, but so, so yummy.

4. I've really come to hate the term (not color) green when used to portray supposedly environmentally sound building/buying/thinking/etc. But I especially loathe it when writers feel the need to italicize it or “put it in quotes”. Everyone in Asheville is trying to be part of/cashing in on the ”green” phenomena, and most of the places and products touting ”greenness” aren't really doing anything special. They recycle, or use cloth napkins instead of paper. You should be already! Yet they still buy 3 pages worth of advertising in each of said papers, post fliers, keep their lights on after closing time (via Progress Energy, not windmills or anything), and import their vegetables from California. Stop trying to be ”green” if it's just a bandwagon you're jumping on! It ain't easy being ”green”. If I see one more paper littered with ”green” specialed-out at least half a dozen times per article, I may throw myself a very ”green” protest by recycling your ”green-washed” publications via a giant bonfire on the sole 2.5 acres of our drought-plagued forestland that hasn't yet been bought out by condo developers. But don't worry! I'll place the resultant ashes from the newspapers/forestland on my compost pile.

5. I have never been a cat person. I had a cat twice as a kid, but I've always been a dog person. Now I have Cinder, who is growing on me despite my protests. Not too much. She shits too often in all the wrong places and still has these allergy/kid-biting/trying-to-usurp-Josh's-affections problems. Even if I'm only on yellow alert (kind of liking this kitty), I have a cavernous fear somewhere inside that she may one day make me start liking LOLcats. (I'm sorry, guys. I know you all love them, but they're unsettling in their inexplicable popularity and apparently endless variations. Not to mention, the faces/poses are just plain nightmare-inducing.)

6. I have cried over four of my lj friends. I've cried a bunch when I've read something heart-wrenching, but I've actually cried over four of them. I'm not saying who, because I'm fairly certain they have no idea.

7. If I could meet and talk with any one person on this earth, it actually wouldn't be KW. It would be, hands down, H.H. The Dalai Lama. I passionately and whole-heartedly hope to meet this man while he's still around.

8. It truly boggles me that Starbucks can be found everywhere in North Carolina – and, indeed, the known world - except for any local area West of Asheville.

9. I have a secret sex blog. If you aren't already on there, I'm not telling you where it is. As soon as I have the internet, that thing is coming back with a vengeance. Not because I have the internet, but because I actually have a whole lot of greatness to post. I am posting this publicly for one reason and one reason only: You Are A Stupid Fucking Cunt. (ha ha, you have to be friended to see)

10. I'm different than I was when we last met. My eternal optimism has disappeared on a quest to find itself. If you see it, let the door hit its ass on the way out tell it I'll see it in a few years. In the meantime, if you ever had any doubts if you liked me, now's the time to skeedattle. I'm not gonna try to whine all the time or anything, but when I get back, I'll really be back – and I'll be calling them out like I see them, getting it out as I can. I tried recapturing the light & love, and it'll happen one day, I'm sure. In the meantime, I'm the kind of gal who lives in the present. I named my journal 'This Path' for a reason, and sometimes our paths take some unexpected twists and turns. Still part of the journey. I don't want no lip.

At least I'm still honest, right? With one notable exception, I've had that going for me for about ten years now.


That's me.


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Sep. 20th, 2008 04:54 am (UTC)
I still like you -- eternal optimism is overrated. =)
Sep. 20th, 2008 04:57 am (UTC)
Aw, shucks. Thank you!

*Whew* I got one person who likes me. That's really all I needed.
Sep. 20th, 2008 04:55 am (UTC)
it's a shame you hate politics, because I read an interesting article recently on the governor of Colorado, and part of his thing was disliking the word "green" and the way it's become a buzz word since he feels the environment shouldn't be a trend or fad.

screwing up carnitas must be a NC thing...they do not have that problem here (in Texas)...though I make them better at home...and I'm from Atlanta.

Woody Allen is spectacular
Sep. 20th, 2008 04:59 am (UTC)
I would agree with this governor. I hate politics, but I feel strongly about them, if that makes sense. I just never like what I see and try to stay out of it.

I'm not sure about the carnitas, but you must have an advantage being in Texas. All the Mexican restaurants around here call any fried pork "carnitas", and I've yet to find any place that makes them even close to how my dad does.

I've heard good things about Woody Allen. It hasn't been deliberate. This is something I just realized the other day. I should really look into that.
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Sep. 20th, 2008 05:05 am (UTC)
I really hope I'm on that secret sex filter.
Sep. 20th, 2008 05:07 am (UTC)
It's not a filter here.

You are. :)
Sep. 20th, 2008 07:06 am (UTC)
regarding point 4: oh the irony. i'm totally with you on this.
Sep. 20th, 2008 10:48 am (UTC)
Ugh, good! Glad I'm not the only one. That's bothered the snot out of me lately.
Sep. 20th, 2008 07:24 am (UTC)
hehehe being brand new - this was the perfect first entry for me to see from you - and I definitely still like what I read ;)
Sep. 20th, 2008 10:49 am (UTC)
Woo hoo, I'm glad to hear it! I'm glad to have you along for the ride.
Sep. 20th, 2008 09:46 am (UTC)
I've only recently returned to the internet.

Welcome back! *hugs*
Sep. 20th, 2008 10:50 am (UTC)
Thank you! I've missed it oh so very much.
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Sep. 20th, 2008 11:13 am (UTC)
You're in North Carolina? That's awesome! I live in and am from Charlotte. I'm guessing your actual roots aren't in this area, as it seems so rare that people's are.

Nice to meet you though, and welcome to the competition!
Sep. 20th, 2008 11:15 am (UTC)
Hi! I'm just over the mountain, near Asheville. My Dad lives in Charlotte. I spent many a summer there.

My germination stems from Iowa/Illinois, but I've been in NC for the last 20 years. I grew up here, so I call myself local anyway. :) It's a pleasure meeting you, too! Thanks so much!
Sep. 20th, 2008 11:56 am (UTC)
One of the best blogs I've ever read! Good for you to vent, and you did it so well! By the way, I've cried for you too! I'm so sorry you lost your mom that way, I lost Nana to a drunk driver and injuries she simply couldn't overcome. I miss her so much!

blessings my friend, send me pictures of the "real" wedding!

oh, my children talked me into facebook. I'll try to find you!

Sep. 20th, 2008 11:59 am (UTC)
Oh my goodness, you really think so? Thank you so much! And thanks for sharing with me and my mom. I'm sorry about your Nana, too. I'll wrap you both in a light bubble, too. (I do still have them sometimes :P)

I will definitely share my real wedding(s?). I may even share my pseudo-wedding more, if I figure out how to upload the video!

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Sep. 20th, 2008 04:16 pm (UTC)
I saw your reply on Hugh's journal about enticing people to add you, and I'll admit, I wasn't quite sold...until I saw the "Bugger" icon. Awesome. So, Hi. I'm Lex, aka SpeciesZero on here, and GoldenApe elsewhere(mostly just RPGnet now).
Sep. 20th, 2008 04:32 pm (UTC)
Hi, thanks for coming aboard! I'm glad to make new friends. Let us hope you made the right decision.
Sep. 20th, 2008 06:16 pm (UTC)
I'm friending - good luck with the LJ Idol mania!
Sep. 20th, 2008 06:29 pm (UTC)
Pleased to meet you! We seem to have quite a bit in common. Thanks for adding me.
Sep. 20th, 2008 06:23 pm (UTC)
Good luck to you this season. I am new in Idol. I thought I'd pop in and read your intro post. I am the opposite, I enjoy politics as ong as it is debated freey and without hash, love both cats and dogs, but was more of a cat person before dogs and tolerate them to the point that I am cuddling my current dog so much, Green is so overused! LOL!
Sep. 20th, 2008 06:35 pm (UTC)
Thank you, and good luck to you! I'm also new, and still working on getting through the intro posts. I scooted in kind of late.

I don't dislike cats, I just mysteriously developed allergies one day. That kind of widened the gulf between us. I'm doing mostly okay with Cinder. *knock on wood*
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Sep. 20th, 2008 08:36 pm (UTC)
Nice intro!

Reiki...I have been interested in trying to understand it more. One of the people I work with on the planning committee for a sci fi fantasy convention does Reiki and I have always wanted him to explain it me more.

Good luck!
Sep. 20th, 2008 08:49 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much! I'm glad you think so.

Reiki is one of my biggest passions. I've really enjoyed my reiki path. If you want to see my personal explanation on it, you can find it here. That's kind of old. Maybe I should review and update it. Well, I'm always happy to chat if you have any questions!
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Sep. 20th, 2008 08:49 pm (UTC)
5. Cinder's have a way to turning normal folk into cat people. They can and will steal your heart. *points to icon* Cinder.
Sep. 20th, 2008 08:51 pm (UTC)
Ha ha ha, really? That's so cool! Ours is technically short for "Cinderella", but Daddy vetoed calling her that. (I think she's become mostly his cat).

I *really* need to make some icons of my critters. Thanks for the idea!
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Sep. 21st, 2008 02:16 am (UTC)

(Also, ZOMG I love Kushiel. I have all the books except the newest one.)
Sep. 21st, 2008 02:17 am (UTC)
*squee* I am such a fan. I have the newest one, but I sped through it and really need to reread it.
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Sep. 21st, 2008 02:40 am (UTC)
Hello Again.
It will be interesting getting to know you.

thank you for sharing
[desc: This is an old oil painting of three red ribbons cross a black background and hold in an assortment of small items including a comb, feather, a bit of jewelry, a hat pin, some papers, a pair of scissors, and so on. Text at the top reads "Thank you for sharing." Text at the bottom reads "Spydie Lives"]
Sep. 21st, 2008 02:41 am (UTC)
Re: Hello Again.
I hope so! Thank you. :)
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