May 17th, 2006

Stewart Not Your Monkey

Paid Accounts, Wishlists, and the Dreaded Natality

or: I read because I love to, but I write because I have to.

My birthday is rapidly nearing, and I'm considering begging for a paid account. I'm happy with my journal, but I see people with all these massive amounts of icons, picture hosting, and voiceposts... I'm such a jealous chica. The only problem is, I know once I upgrade, I'll never want to go back.

Is it worth it? I do fairly well here, or so I like to tell myself. Does having a paid account really make any difference?

I would like to hear from anyone who has one. Is it good? For those of you who upgraded from free accounts - is it truly all that astoundingly better? I can't decide.

Anyway, I've also been creating an Amazon Wishlist. This was mainly to help Josh, but any of you who for some reason feel like gifting me on my birthday, please feel free to look it up. Name: Reiki Doula ; Email: . I was probably the last person in the world to start cruising Amazon. I warn you - my wishlist quickly got extensive. I'm going wild on that thing. Books are a drug passion.

Also, I've been feeling that urge to work on my writing more. I used to write poetry, back in my angsty teenage years. Of course, I reveled in ripping each stanza from the very ethers of my soul, but I never really read up on any other poets. You can guess my mad poetry skill level.

Eventually I realized the error of my ways and began looking at the works of well-known poets - I fell in love with Rumi (you think?) & Hafiz, had a drunken affair with Sylvia Plath, checked out what that Maya Angelou thing was all about, and peeked in on James Dillet Freeman after I found my spiritual home at Unity. But I still realize that I need much more poetry reading if my poetry is ever to come to life again.

This has been on my brain a lot. I had a long, self-imposed writer's block. When I had Eden, I wrote a poem that was actually published, The Girl in the Picture (note: the online version totally messed up the structure). My midwife asks every time I see her if I've written any more poems, especially since I had Ivy. I feel guilty that I haven't. Then when I started thinking about picking it all up, suddenly everyone on my f-list was posting poetry.

Universal Nudge?

I want to start again.

So if any of you have great poets or books of poetry that need to be checked out, please suggest them here and I will either find them at my library or add them to my wishlist. In the future, I may create a poetry or writing filter, so be thinking if you might want on that. I need to do more reading first, and take care of a few other priorities, but this is definitely going on my goal list.