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An Exercise in Perspective

Since I started my livejournal back in 2005, there have been some misconceptions, insinuations, and outright accusations. I've decided to use this week's therealljidol topic as an opportunity to set the record straight.

Some of you seem to think I'm, if not an authority on one or two topics, at least fairly competent. You guys often come to me for advice, or just to hear my perspective on things. A few of you have even gone so far as to use words like “witty”, “brilliant”, and “amazingly kickass in every way”.

You told me I handled it well. You said I had strength, grace, and one of you even accused me of deserving respect. You said I've grown, that I've become a strong and vibrant young woman. You say I make you laugh, make you think, make you cry. You call me wonderful, a sweetie, dear friend.

You have named me family, even before you met me.

You said I was stronger than that, that everything would turn out all right, that I had things under control even though it felt like a maelstrom. You said I shined, that I emanated light and love. I was “a powerful, bright energy”, "a fountain of love”, and showed “amazing strength”.

You toss around words like adorable, lovely, beautiful...sexy!





I think maybe you think I'm someone else.

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zarhooie
Oct. 17th, 2008 12:25 pm (UTC)
I think maybe YOU think you're something else, because the ahavah that *I* know has beauty, talent, and wit that travels even easier across silver wires than it does across the open air. You are loved, admired and looked up to by many people and that many people can't be wrong.

Well, they can be, but they're not in this case.

It's kind of hurtful, really, for you to basically come out and say "yeah, I think you're wrong" about something that several of us emphatically believe. That's sort of like saying "Well, I know that object looks like a soda, and smells like a soda and tastes like a soda and feels like a soda, but you're wrong and it's a goat." See?

<3
ahavah
Oct. 17th, 2008 12:27 pm (UTC)
Aw, thank you so much! I didn't mean for it to be hurtful or a snub in anyway. I just don't actually have a mistaken identity situation, so this was the best I could come up with. :^0
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boxsofrain
Oct. 17th, 2008 12:35 pm (UTC)
I think you should give yourself some more credit. :)
ahavah
Oct. 17th, 2008 12:41 pm (UTC)
I do 96% of the time. :D
sarahwannabe
Oct. 17th, 2008 12:36 pm (UTC)
We all have that doubt. When I felt I was going crazy from having 3 infants I had one woman in the home school group say that I was "serene". Actually, it centered me and I realized that I was handling things much better than I felt I was. And, having other people's perspective (and feedback through the journal) makes sure we don't always feed on our doubts. :)
ahavah
Oct. 17th, 2008 12:43 pm (UTC)
I think I may have gotten a serene once, but that was while I was meditating on a rock so it was probably applicable. lol

I have also been called things on the whole other end of the spectrum. They're both true, and everything in between.
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lessthan90sheep
Oct. 17th, 2008 02:35 pm (UTC)
Well *of course* I think you're someone else. Duh.


But don't worry, I won't give your real idenity away-- so you can continue fighting crime in spandex in the night.
ahavah
Oct. 17th, 2008 02:37 pm (UTC)
Silly. My first rule was that I am spandex-exempt.
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shadowwolf13
Oct. 17th, 2008 05:02 pm (UTC)
We all think less of ourselves at times. I think it takes the love of our friends to remind us of who we really are. ;)

Good entry.
ahavah
Oct. 17th, 2008 05:54 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :)
qilora
Oct. 17th, 2008 05:12 pm (UTC)
someone ELSE? ;-)

pish tosh.


and why you feel "sick" today?... you okay?
ahavah
Oct. 17th, 2008 05:55 pm (UTC)
I've been sick all week. :(

And thank you.
solstice_singer
Oct. 17th, 2008 07:24 pm (UTC)
I don't know you at all, but your entries are wonderful, and, even though this may be because I think you're someone you're not, I'd like to get to know you.
ahavah
Oct. 17th, 2008 07:55 pm (UTC)
Why thank you! I'd like to get to know you too. I didn't realize you'd friended me somewhere along the way. I'll get right on that! Much of my journal is locked anyway.

As I mentioned to someone else, I can claim this, the other end of the spectrum, and everything in between. ;) This was just a harder topic for me to get something good.
jenandbronze
Oct. 17th, 2008 07:58 pm (UTC)
I go through the ame thing with myelf, not quite sure if I will ever find myelf, in the right place in society... it is hard to find sometimes, where we fit. HUGS!

Great work on the writing and feeling.
ahavah
Oct. 17th, 2008 07:59 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
kathness
Oct. 17th, 2008 10:21 pm (UTC)
*smirks* then *guffaws* then *smirks* again. No, really? *collapses in a fit of giggles*
ahavah
Oct. 18th, 2008 12:46 am (UTC)
Sweet! Guffaws are definitely my favorites. Besides maybe kisses.
walkertxkitty
Oct. 18th, 2008 03:09 am (UTC)
I can understand. A journal really only shows a portion of the person's totality to the world. I've had friends point out things about me I never thought possible, things that did indeed turn out to be me, and I've had people who completely utterly assumed things which were wrong. I'd suggest embracing some of those comments; from what I can see of your writing, they do seem to fit.
ahavah
Oct. 18th, 2008 03:11 am (UTC)
Why thank you! I happily embrace them most of the time, even if I don't always feel it.
millysdaughter
Oct. 19th, 2008 05:56 am (UTC)
You toss around words like adorable, lovely, beautiful...sexy!

Because they DO fit you!
ahavah
Oct. 19th, 2008 05:57 am (UTC)
Aw, thank you so much!
baxaphobia
Oct. 19th, 2008 08:38 pm (UTC)
I don't know you so can't say whether I think you are accurate in this entry or not. but your LJ friends must know something so maybe you should start to believe them a bit?
ahavah
Oct. 19th, 2008 09:07 pm (UTC)
I appreciate that! Actually I do believe it, most of the time. This was more just an exercise in how sometimes, especially lately, I seem to feel opposite of how I'm perceived. I think that happens to all of us sometimes, though.
roina_arwen
Oct. 19th, 2008 10:23 pm (UTC)
I think we all feel that way sometimes; very approachable entry, nicely done.
ahavah
Oct. 20th, 2008 01:38 am (UTC)
Thank you!
pinkslit
Oct. 20th, 2008 03:12 pm (UTC)
I know we've only just begun but I think you're pretty swell.
I really like your take on this topic....nice.
ahavah
Oct. 20th, 2008 10:58 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I think you're swell, too - especially since I find few other people who still use swell! :D I appreciate it.

And lovely icon!
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