Technically today's the start of Week 2 for me, so I'd better finally get this Week 1 post done. So I'm doing that instead of my morning pages today. I've been meaning to do an AW post since Monday. On the plus side, I've pretty much figured out my most productive times during the day. I do well in the mornings before I have to get the big girls up for camp, start feeding & watering critters, etc. Today is the last day of camp though, so I should start getting more productive morning time – first before any of the girls get up, then Maya is pretty chill & happy with morning snack & playtime. I have to do most of my daily FLY routine in the morning before it gets too hot, but then I usually get Maya's naptimes for writing/AW or online time.
Evenings and late at night used to be my most productive writing times, but I've finally realized that that just isn't going to happen anymore. I'd planned to do an artist's date last night after Maya went to bed, but it was almost 8 before she fell asleep, and by then I was so hot and headachey that I just left her on the couch in the living room with Josh and went to bed. He gets up at 4:30, so he's usually in bed well before me, but I just keep getting headaches every night. It's the heat. Me & Eden both are very prone to heat sickness, and it's looking like Maya might be the same way. We all get grumpy, irky, and sick when we get too hot or too much sun, and since we need a new pool filter (to get today, hopefully!), we haven't had evening swim time for three or four days now. That's how long I've been headachey every night and why Maya's mad, also likely headachey, and fights sleep so hard. Pool time cools her off, makes her so happy, and puts her to sleep within about 5-10 minutes of getting out.
But now she stays up later, and Josh has started going to work an hour earlier, meaning I get up at 5 now. As much as I'm naturally a night owl, I'm just apparently good for nothing after 5 or 6 pm anymore.
Mornings with The Artist's Way have been going well though. I usually have time for my morning pages and three rounds of affirmations. At the start of the week, I wrote down ten negative blurts and rewrote them as affirmations (including several that she suggested). I haven't done any written exercises about my past bad guys (since I have done both those and past healing work with those issues), but I have mused over whether I'm still carrying any of that stuff around and if there are any new ones. I really dislike the "monster" or "horror" tasks. I've done them in the past, thinking maybe I balked for good reason, but I just don't find those helpful at all. It's usually easy for me to list examples of my personal champions, since I have some very encouraging and supportive friends and family, but since my current issue is more a feeling of "I used to be good at this stuff, but now I suck", I've decided to just start a new list and collect positive encouragement and feedback as I force myself to get over it and just write (and share) again. I enjoy the exercises about alternate lives, and I haven't done it yet, but I plan to finish up that and maybe a couple other exercises and read Week 2 this afternoon.
I've read the first portions of the book, at least, several times, but this time something really jumped out at me that never has before, so I wrote it down and have been reading it along with doing my affirmations (which I really love doing). I've found that reminding myself of this has been very helpful for me to lose a couple of my best excuses for not doing it:
Remember that in order to recover as an artist, you must be willing to be a bad artist. Give yourself permission to be a beginner. By being willing to be a bad artist, you have a chance to be an artist, and, perhaps, over time, a very good one.
So while I haven't yet done my artist's date (and I will), I have done quite a bit of research for a new idea I've been tossing around, I've been brainstorming different directions to go with The Neon Giraffe (trying really hard to make it less cliché, though no sparks of genius just yet), I caught up one overdue email account, and I've been rattling around my three novel ideas and trying to decide which to work on for this year's NaNo. As far as not-exactly-writing art, I've had a new idea for a new comic project that I've also been brainstorming. I just found my colored pencils last night and am ready to go on preliminary sketches. I'm not am artist or a skilled sketcher/drawer/painter by any means, but I enjoy doing those things.
So Week 1 wasn't as slamdacious as I had expected, but I'm being mindful again, and that's a good thing. If I can get my date this weekend (today is busy, but we'll see) and finally get a story written, I will consider it an overall success. I look forward to reading and starting Week 2 this afternoon.