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Reading Deprivation

The reading deprivation week is a task for Week 4 of The Artist's Way: A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity. My AW Buddies and I are starting Week 8 today, but I saved the reading deprivation specifically for this week.

I still have trouble with this 'hell week' every year. I have a hard time enjoying Cinco de Mayo anymore, including seeing all the happy posting & partying, after what happened to my mom on May 5th (<-- TW for that link: head trauma, lots of grief). It's all the Mother's Day posts that are worst of all. She died on Mother's Day, and that's probably my fault since I wouldn't let them pull the plug on our wedding day. I still hate myself for that, tbh. I was too hurt and greedy. I still wanted to go ahead and get married with her there, and not do that that day. So anyway, I decided to do my reading deprivation to help encourage me to stay offline from 5/6-5/13, and hopefully I can miss most of the Mother's Day hoopla and stay more positive and upbeat this time.

I have a lot of things I plan to get done while I'm not reading. I still plan to write. And I do plan to cheat and keep up with my online write-in chats that I've been having with my writer buddies. That helps me SO much. I get more done than I probably do the rest of the week.

Here are the things I plan/hope to accomplish this upcoming week:

  • Go through mom's things. It's way passed time.
  • Do a ceremony/shamanic journey.
  • Write more stories!
  • Revise Fire Witch and send it back out. This may be cheating too, but I'm also long overdue on that revision. May get to it tonight, in fact. We'll see.
  • Plant my garden! That is also well overdue. Sheesh.
  • Finish helping Josh fix the pasture fencing.
  • Put in more resumes/job apps now that I'm well again.
  • Do a couple big cook days, trying new recipes I've been meaning to try. That was the week I got sick, so I never got to any of the new stuff. Hope to do some of them today, in fact.
  • Check out the local-ish SCA group.
  • Try painting or drawing again.
  • Maybe try selling some kefir at the Farmer's Market.
  • Write letters.
  • Check out the videos in my new Intro to Guitar class that I haven't had a chance to even peek in yet.
  • Go for walks with the family.
  • Find my camera. Take pictures while on our walks, if I can find it.
  • Clean more around the house.

Now, I do have to go to the library tomorrow and look up some books on their catalogue to see if any of the branches have them. I tried Friday, but it was storming so they had the computers all shut down. I found that that particular branch did not have any of the books I was looking for, so I want to find out who does and pick them up throughout the week as I head in various directions. If not, I'll put in some long-distance orders via the library share thing they have.

It will be interesting to check back in afterward and see how much of this stuff I actually got done. Here's hoping!


( 12 comments — Leave a comment )
May. 5th, 2013 06:31 pm (UTC)
Hugs. Stinko de Mayo is just a Hallmark holiday anyway. Fathers Day is our " Lets call the whole thing off " day since both our dads passed in the summer near that day. At least we have our kids so it isn't a full loss. AW
May. 5th, 2013 06:50 pm (UTC)
I like that, Stinko de Mayo. I may start using that!

I'm sorry to hear that you lost not one but two dads right at Father's Day. That must be so hard! My girls still have trouble honoring my "call it off" insistence, as they just really want to shower me with mommy love. I appreciate it, but it always makes it hard. I'm like, "That's what my birthday is for! That's my mommy-day. I don't want to even hear it mentioned in May, thanks." I think they're starting to respect that though. I just try to wake up and get through the day without thinking too much about what it is. :/
May. 5th, 2013 07:31 pm (UTC)
My best friend from school since age 10 lost her mom on the Monday before Thanksgiving, so that's a trigger day for her. ( Sudden massive heart attack at age 60). In Jewish fashion, she was buried on Wednesday within 72 hours. They ate w us on that Thursday. We actually had a wonderful time together w all of our kids, etc., but its still a tough week for her.

There's never a "good day" for shit to happen. Loving on our kids and pets helps some. AW
May. 5th, 2013 07:57 pm (UTC)
It seems to me like folks often seem to die/lose loved ones on holidays. I know so many people who struggle with certain holidays because of it. Wonder if it's overall stress of that time or if maybe we just have so many holidays anymore that they're unavoidable.
May. 5th, 2013 08:05 pm (UTC)
Prob both. Plus all the birthdays. Not many left over days. AW
May. 5th, 2013 07:50 pm (UTC)
Love you Amanda! In Florida, the library had an online catalogue and account in which you could search and hold items. You actually have to visit the library? Bummer. I can imagine that I would have to do the same in this teeny town too.
May. 5th, 2013 07:59 pm (UTC)
Re: *hugs*
Love you too! Yeah, I wish they had everything online here. We have to actually go to the library. And if another branch has it, I'll almost always just drive down to pick them up because asking it to be sent over means waiting until someone happens to be heading that way, so you never know how long it's going to be. I'm kind of in the middle of all of the branches (makes me perfect for a sub position at least!), so I'll just eat the 20-30 mins to pick them up.
May. 5th, 2013 08:08 pm (UTC)
Re: *hugs*
That does suck but yes, close enough to work there! At any of them! :)
May. 5th, 2013 07:58 pm (UTC)
*huggs* I'm here even if you wanna call! Sorry - was going to let you know we were home, but I fed the kids and we crashed... :S
May. 5th, 2013 08:00 pm (UTC)
I appreciate the offer! I'm trying to stay busy and not talk/think about it too awful much. Channeling the energy into positive stuff and all. Thanks for the offer though! Sorry if I was too aggro when you all came by. I was trying not to be. Just a hard day for me.
May. 5th, 2013 09:47 pm (UTC)
You're fine! My mom is just the same as you. She means well, she really does. I guess for her - she sees you as family since we see each other so much. With us - It's kind of, we all chip in to help each other and don't really keep score. Does that make sense? We know you would and will help us whenever you can, That's why we are the way we are.

Just know that you have a huge clan here to help. Anytime you need us.
May. 5th, 2013 09:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much!
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