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FLYing Progress - Day 4

Sick...

So sick...

Blah.

Sadly, it seems I have picked a crappy week to try FLYing again. Apparently Josh has to work extra hours at church - I forgot that this weekend was 'Friendship Sunday' - and so he'll be working probably every evening.

I started feeling sick yesterday. Bad headaches, horrible stomach pains, hot flashes...I came home again at 10 pm and fell straight into the bed. I didn't even get a chance to do my distance healing and for that I apologize. I just felt so bad, I couldn't even Reiki myself.

This morning I tried brushing my teeth and when I went for the backteeth, I totally threw up. It made me feel a little better, but not much. Morning routine is not done, but I'm waiting for my whites to finish (aka panties and bras), and then I will make myself get dressed to the shoes anyway. I'm also going to try to *shine my freaking sink*! It's killing me that it's not done yet.

Oddly enough, I keep getting emails from an old FlyLady group I belonged to a couple years back. I think it's my local group. I started getting these emails Monday, the day after I resumed FLYing. I know I said I wouldn't sign up for the emails until I was ready, but they just started coming to me. I'm wondering if this is a sign. The first email was about a local FLYfest (meeting) coming up. The next two were about Babysteps towards making your Control Journal. I've done part of this already. I'm wondering whether I should continue with my plan to go on slowly at my own pace, or go ahead and jump in with the local folks who are apparently starting over at the very same time I'm starting again.

I always say there are no coincidences.

Hm.

Perhaps it will take meditation. I don't want to jump in too fast and get burnt out again, and you all can see that I'm a slow-to-starter.

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manifest_now
Apr. 26th, 2006 03:49 pm (UTC)
Yes there are no coincidences, but perhaps you're having one of those healing crises. You know that's what people are calling 'illness' these days, right? It's basically wellness, forward movement. You are shedding the old unneeded stuff. That's part of your spring cleaning, too.

I would ask you not to make yourself feel like a failure with any of this FLY stuff, though. I am rusty with my FLY information but you say it does begin slowly and build from baby steps, right? I've been in the middle of spring cleaning myself - I have sooo many reasons to do that, but ... it's not happening overnight. I'm not the clean the house from top to toe in one weekend kinda gal - and I forgive myself for that. My style is my style and no matter how clean my kitchen is, I know there's a back bedroom full of junk. Yikes!

Another thing, I have noticed there's alot of people with alot fo creative and intuitive energy whose homes are - well, kinda cluttered.

And lastly, you first. You know that the reiki thing is "fix yourself first". Just for today... no ... what is it?? Let's work on getting ourselves to top form first and the house and distance thing always falls into place after that.

(((hugs)))

Fluids and rest young lady

m_n
ahavah
Apr. 26th, 2006 06:13 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Yes, I feel like I am in a healing crisis - shedding old stuff. I really feel like I get sick because the house is uncontrollable, and to be honest, that's part of the reason why I haven't been moving ahead with my Reiki classes. I feel stagnated, and I know that the energy would flow so much better once my house is clean.

I actually felt a bit better and got quite a bit accomplished so far. :)
manifest_now
Apr. 26th, 2006 09:18 pm (UTC)
Yes I have done a big chunk of de-junking and noticed how much clearer and lighter I felt, and how much more in the flow I was. And I am ready for another chunk of junk to leave my life.

Sometimes I think we do it at our own natural pace, that too much at one time might be a shocker. Like... uh... five high colonics at once. It's too much at one time, it's uncomfortable, and makes the conditon worse instead of better in the beginning. :P (weird comparison sorry)


m_n
ahavah
Apr. 26th, 2006 11:32 pm (UTC)
No, it makes sense! Thanks for the reminder. I got some done today before I fell asleep for most of the day (!), but I felt better for it.
lanternlady
Apr. 26th, 2006 06:38 pm (UTC)
I have to agree with the whole healing crisis thing. Remember, when you do/give/send reiki for others, you are the channel and as such YOU GET IT FIRST!.. So all this energy you are sending to others is coming to you as well, in addition to those of us sending to you... goooooood gravy woman, that's pretty overwhelming stuff. When you started your distance list, you increased the flow by enormous amounts all at once. That being said, Reiki will never be more than you can handle. But healing crisis, as unpleasant as it can be, is for the greater good in the end.

One day at a time. :o)
hugs
ahavah
Apr. 26th, 2006 11:33 pm (UTC)
That's true. I know it's better for me.

I did try to do my distance healing, but I think it was just *too much* energy at once. I was really nauseous, I couldn't concentrate, and I just fell asleep instead. I think it was better. I needed sleep more. :) Thank you!
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ahavah
Apr. 26th, 2006 11:36 pm (UTC)
Oh thank you! I'm always glad to send Reiki to my friends, and I would love your great positive energy. I ended up passing out for most of the day, and now I REALLY feel much better. I guess that was what I really needed.
nedia782
Apr. 26th, 2006 09:38 pm (UTC)
Im sorry your sick muffin. I hope you get up to snuff soon ;) I dont do reiki, but I will send some energy your way this evening. Feel better!!!
ahavah
Apr. 26th, 2006 11:37 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Any energy is good energy. I appreciate it!
nedia782
Apr. 26th, 2006 11:47 pm (UTC)
NP :)
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