Do you know what this means?
I am now only TWENTY pounds away from my weight loss goal!
I am also weighing less than I have since before I got pregnant (although, eep, the baby-belly is worse).
That may still seem like a lot, but I got big when I was pregnant - twice. So, I'm feeling so good about myself (and wanting to make sure that I keep on track), that I've decided it's finally time to post actual weight. I feel this will help keep me motivated. Nothing like public accountability.
Speaking of which - would anyone like to be a weight loss buddy? I need someone(s) who is willing to say, "Hey, Amanda, have you exercised any this week? How many Little Debbies have you had? How many pounds have you lost?" Anyone else who's winning the battle, let's do it together.
So...here it is. The full nitty-gritty:
Now, keep in mind that I'm only 5'3". My *fantasy* weight would be 125, but I haven't weighed that little since high school. Seeing as how I've had two babies since then, I figure a realistic and healthy goal would be 135, although I hope these will be life changes, and that the weight loss will not stop at 135.
Most of my weight loss has been from dietary changes (and breastfeeding - one more huzzah for breastfeeding!). My exercise has been hit-and-miss -- meaning that I usually resume exercising when I hit another plateau. :P I'm trying to improve this. We're working on having more Family Activity time, where we all get active together.
This is hard for me. I CANNOT exercise in front of people. My whole life, it's been this way. I used to loathe gym class, because others could see me.
I've stepped out of my comfort zone with this. We've gone biking together once as a family, and plan to do more when Josh fixes up the other bike that is more my size. We have family dance time. And now that we've bought the kids a playset, we're all spending more time playing outside (sun! Glorious sun! Have you seen our albino pictures? We'll all be healthier for that).
I also have a bellydance video, Veena & Neena Present: Bellydance Fitness for Beginners, Basic Moves. I've only done this video maybe twice before, because I quit when Josh lost his day job and began spending days at home. I can't do that in front of him until I'm much better. But today I chased him outside with the kids and had glorious alone time to work on my video.
I know keeping form is important, so I had a mirror set up. Let me tell you, that is not a boost to my morale.
I'm surprised I had so much trouble with things. First, the lady narrating said things like, "Ok, now right, back, left". Of course, this means that I should be doing what the women are doing, only backwards from the way I'm seeing it on TV - as a mirror image. I thought that would be easy for me. Afterall, I picked up signing super-easily, and most people seem to struggle with doing the motions backwards, as a mirror image from the person showing you. I *never* had that problem. It was so easy to 'switch' it around.
Not the same with dancing, I've learned. I'd get all mixed up, so I ended up just copying what I saw. Discouraging, but not that bad for a beginner.
*Sigh* That's only the beginning of my difficulty with this.
I think the ONLY thing I can do half-way decently are hip drops. Everything else is so hard for me. A real wake-up call for how out of shape I'm in. I have trouble isolating moves, like only moving the neck (not shoulders!) or only hips (not chest!), etc. And add hand movements or walking? I'm lost.
I've never felt so hideously ungraceful. I tried doing leg lifts and got such a cramp in my left hip that I fell over and had to stretch it out through the routine.
Even my snake arms suck, and honestly, with my fluency in signing, it looked like something that should be easy. I move my hands and arms all the time to express myself! No problem, right? Gah. I do half way decently with my right (dominant) arm, but the left arm throws me for a loop every time. It's so totally NOT graceful that at least I was able to laugh at myself. I just can't seem to 'lead with the elbow' on my left side, which would then throw off my right side, and I'd end up windmilling it or flopping them around like fish out of water. Nice.
Well, it's nothing if not encouragement to keep practicing until I conquer this video.
I took a bellydancing class for a month or two when I was pregnant with Eden. I couldn't do the moves and walk then, either. I didn't feel so darned self-conscious, though, because I was six or seven months pregnant. I thought I was hot stuff.
Those illusions are dashed. I have no excuse now. Blah.
Josh has a yoga video. I'm contemplating switching between the two. Maybe that would help, and also help with my stretching and gracefulness. We shall see.
In the meantime, I'm starting to think I'll pick back up with something I would do back in high school when I was on drill team (where I totally rocked the house, for the record). I started doing sit-ups and push-ups every night before bed. I began doing as many as I could do while maintaining the proper form, then try to do just one more the next night, then just one more the next night, etc. I'll tell you what, too - I was in the best shape of my life when I was on drill team. Of course, that happens when you're always having to "Drop & give me twenty!" and "All right - five laps on the track!" anytime some dumb kid (usually male) would piss off the platoon leader. That, and I had a manual labor job after school.
So, perhaps some measures will be taken as I draft our new, strict daily routines (See here if you're wondering what that's all about). The new schedule will hopefully begin next week.