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Ivy's Hospital Scare - Please Pray/Reiki

Josh was supposed to go work for some people from church early this morning, so we were up around 6 am. Ivy was nursing and didn't want to let go, so I stayed in bed with her, waking up slowly. Around 6:30 I tried to get up and she started crying some more, so I switched sides to let her nurse more. She latched on, and was kicking the covers off. The fan was on, so I tried to cover her back up, and then I felt her leg & realized it was burning up. Then all the sudden she started jerking a bit. At first I thought she had one of those scary/falling dreams where you wake up real suddenly and 'startle'... but then I noticed that her eyes kept blinking really fast. I thought "Oh no." Josh is epileptic, and I immediately thought it was a seizure.

I started calling for Josh, but he didn't answer. I realized he was outside feeding the puppies. I picked Ivy up and was cradling her, and her arm just kept jerking and her eyes kept blinking wildly. I heard Josh come in and yelled that I thought something was wrong with the baby. He came running, and I said, "Look, is it a seizure?" And he just took her and told me to call the doctor.

I called, and they took the info and said the on-call doc would call me back (weekend). As I hung up and was waiting, her seizure just got worse and worse. Her whole body was shaking now, and her poor arm kept flailing, and her eyes were rolling around all in her head. I got a cool cloth and put it to her head, and Josh kept running his finger on her cheek saying "Ivy, Ivy baby look at me," but nothing worked. By now it had been about five whole minutes and was only getting worse, so I called 911. I gave the operator all our info while Josh just held her, and her little body just went rigid and her poor eyes were falling around in her head.

I started crying at this point, and the operator's trying to calm me down. He says, "What's she doing now?" And I said, "Man, I told you, she just won't quit! She's convulsing and shaking and seizuring all over the place and it hasn't stopped yet!" And then, dear God, she started foaming and I told the guy and he just said to turn her on her side so she didn't choke.

Well anyway, he wanted to keep me on the line but I told him that we were waiting for the doc to call back so I got off. The doc rang through as soon as I hung up, and as I was talking to her, Ivy seemed to calm down a good bit. Then she started crying, which the doc said was a good sign and for us to go ahead and take her to the emergency room and we'd probably see her there (we didn't). The paramedics came in, but she'd stopped seizuring by now. They said it was actually normal for a baby to do that with a high fever, and she was burning up. They took her sugar & temp, which was 99.7 under the arm (they added a degree), but she was moving so much that I don't think it was a reliable reading. They said she seemed fine and we could probably drive her in ourselves, which they could tell made me nervous. So, sweet things, they said they'd hang out while we got Eden & everything ready to go, just in case. I was freaking, I mean I really really thought I was watching my baby die.

We got everything together as quickly as possible and headed to the ER. We got there probably around 7:30-8, but luckily they were able to give us a room right away. Ivy was still crying a bit, but she didn't look good at all. She couldn't hold her head up, and she couldn't move her eyes. They were stuck to the left. They took her temp there (rectal) and it was over 102. They gave her tylenol & ibuprofen to fight the fever, stressing the fact that it sounded like a fibral seizure - meaning caused from the fever - because Josh is epileptic so we were pretty frightened. I've never seen Josh have one as bad as hers, though (although he's had one grand mal seizure since I met him, I wasn't there to see it). And his never lasted that long, either. I was afraid it did some permanent damage.

Anyway, the medicine really helped. After a bit, she was able to focus her eyes, although they stayed to the left. She smiled at Daddy and said "Good girl" and it broke my heart. We just kept telling her what a good girl she was. She heard sissy playing and tried to look for her, but Josh had to move her around so Eden was on her left. But that made her smile when she saw Eden, and Eden kept saying "Peek-a-boo!" which would make her laugh and then Eden would say, "I playin make the baby feel better".

I felt so bad. I was sitting there, watching her poor head loll around, and I kept thinking "Oh no, I took allergy medicine yesterday. I've been drinking too much coffee. What did I eat yesterday?" You know? I think the fact that it all started when I was nursing her as really scaring me; I just kept thinking it was something *I* did. The medicine knocked her out, but her eyes were red and puffy and she was so, so pale. Grey. I kept remembering all the stories I've read lately of babies passing on, and just yesterday or the day before I read an entry on one friend's journal about a homebirth transfer when they did an ultrasound and only found "a little black heart" - I remembered those words exactly. And then I thought of beautiful little Abby, and even Lucy - who's mom had the good sense to take massive amounts of pictures through her heart surgery ordeal. And all I could think was that we never went and had her pictures done yet, and I'd left my camera at home, and how I couldn't get a picture of her smiling at daddy, and the last memory I would have of her was her head hanging back with her eyes rolling around. And I just cried, and Josh kept telling me not to, to be strong for her and Eden and I kept trying.

Eventually they came and took her for a CAT scan & chest x-rays. Josh went with her while I stayed with Eden. I picked up her little towel - the spit raggy type thing, and I tried to hug it and smell it but it didn't smell like her and that made me cry, too. And Eden asked what's the matter, so I just explained that I was scared because sissy was so sick, and how we needed to give her lots of good energy.

Ivy was sleeping when Josh brought her back, and she slept for a good couple hours. I laid at the foot of the bed, trying not to disturb her. Then I realized her feet were right above my head, so I turned and tried to smell her then, just so I could remember what she smelled like. But I'd cried so much that I couldn't smell, and that made me cry again.

She woke up, though, and looked a lot better. Her eyes were finally moving around, and we played peek-a-boo and she laughed -really laughed- a whole lot. And she could pick her head up, too. She was watching me as I moved around, and then I realized she was *really* watching Eden eat her goldfish. So I laid with her on the bed to nurse her, and she fell right back to sleep.

Another hour or so later the doctor came back and said that the CAT scan looked ok - no permanent damage - but that it looked like there was fluid in her left lung. We caught it in the early stages of pneumonia. The gave her an intramuscular shot of antibiotics, and I must say that she started improving immensely after that. Her eyes really cleared up. The gave us the meds to keep up with, and wrote a prescription for amoxicillin to start tomorrow, and said we could take her home. By the time we left, she was focusing well and able to move her head and both arms. She was still very sleepy & groggy. She's only just now woken up (at 3). She's smiling, though, and talking, although we haven't put her down to see if she can still walk around. She looks ok, though, and I think she'll be able to keep her 'cruising' up if she's not just too weakened from being sick. She's waving & blowing kisses again, so she seems pretty much back to normal. Cranky, but I guess that's to be expected.

So anyway, we're supposed to watch her closely for the next few days. If she shows *any* signs of getting worse, we're supposed to get her back to the ER ASAP. She looks really drained, so it's my hope that she'll keep napping well and get her strength back. I'd still appreciate any prayers and reiki you want to send our way. I already called both the church and Silent Unity (1-816-969-2000 or 1-800-669-7729) from the hospital. The chaplain I spoke with at Silent Unity said an amazingly awesome prayer with me, and I was so grateful and it truly helped me so much. I highly recommend calling them, even if you're not a Unitic. I've actually called them several times, and they pray with you on the phone and then put your (or Ivy's, in this case) name up on the wall there at Unity Village and people pray for them for 24 hours a day for 30 days. It's an amazing ministry.

Ok, if you got this far, thanks for reading. My online time will likely be spotty for a while, so that's why. I'll keep everyone posted as to how she fares. Just please hold us in your hearts. Thank you!

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ahavah
Jul. 1st, 2006 08:07 pm (UTC)
Yes, of course! You don't know how much we'd appreciate that. I'm sorry I made you cry. I've barely stopped today, as it is. It's better knowing that she's on the mend, but even when she's sleeping, I just can't stop running to check on her. I'm so afraid it will happen again. *sigh* I'd love it if you could put all of us in your reiki jar. Thank you so much!
kethlenda
Jul. 1st, 2006 07:53 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
ahavah
Jul. 1st, 2006 08:07 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
berryhappy
Jul. 1st, 2006 07:55 pm (UTC)
OMG hun, I'm so glad she's doing alright. *hugs*

Sorry you have to deal with that. Sending Reiki and love ASAP. My mother in law is a Unity minister and she's just way awesome:) they are a great group of people.

*huge hugs* I will keep her on my healing list till you inform me otherwise.

Much love to you and your family hun.
ahavah
Jul. 1st, 2006 08:09 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I really, really appreciate it. I'm sure Ivy does, too. Did you know she's a Reiki Master? I was pregnant with her when I got my Master attunement, and my RM saw her receive all three attunements. She's such a great kid. This is the first time she's been sick at all.
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fierceawakening
Jul. 1st, 2006 08:23 pm (UTC)
Oh no! I hope she is all right.
ahavah
Jul. 1st, 2006 08:25 pm (UTC)
Thank you! She looks like she's doing better. I may keep her in bed with me all night, though, so I can feel her if it starts up again. :(
belou_luna
Jul. 1st, 2006 08:26 pm (UTC)
You and your family are in my thoughts & prayers.
ahavah
Jul. 1st, 2006 08:30 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! That means a lot to all of us. And I know it's helping her get better by the minute.
jovial_kitten
Jul. 1st, 2006 08:31 pm (UTC)
oh honey..what a scare..I'm glad she's ok now
ahavah
Jul. 1st, 2006 08:33 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! She's getting better, but not quite a-ok. We need to make sure that her pneumonia clears up, rather than gets full-blown. She's currently making a mess of my living room with Big Sissy, though, so I guess that's a good sign!
iynx
Jul. 1st, 2006 09:08 pm (UTC)
Oh I'm so sorry! Poor little thing. I'm glad that you were able to bring her home though. My thoughts are with you & Ivy.
ahavah
Jul. 1st, 2006 10:22 pm (UTC)
Me too! I appreciate you holding us in your heart. Thank you so much!
inanmak
Jul. 1st, 2006 09:10 pm (UTC)
*hugs*

I see her full of health and vitality; running through a field of flowers and glowing in the Light. Sending reiki to Ivy and to you, Josh & Eden, with love from the Universe...and from me.

*hugs*

:)
ahavah
Jul. 1st, 2006 10:23 pm (UTC)
Oh, thank you so much! We ALL appreciate it. I will keep that image of Ivy in my mind. Thank you so much! *Hugs*
(Anonymous)
Jul. 1st, 2006 09:15 pm (UTC)
If there's one thing I've learned from hanging out at children's hospitals, it's that kids are tough. Really tough. It's often the parents who need the most help, to be perfectly honest, especially after the initial crisis is taken care of. So you make sure you take care of yourself, and Josh too, because it sounds like you're doing everything that you can for Ivy.

The best of everything to you, Ivy, and the rest of your family; I'm thinking of you!

"Jeraliey"
ahavah
Jul. 1st, 2006 10:52 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much for thinking of all of us! I think you're right about the parents taking it harder. Josh had to make me eat. I didn't want to, because I have this rock in my stomach, but it did make me feel better. We're going to try to get to bed early and have a low-key weekend now. *fingers crossed* Thanks again!
holychapstick
Jul. 1st, 2006 09:25 pm (UTC)
i just want to say that both you and your whole family are in my heart and prayers. i just know that your lovely little ivy will be back on her feet (or hands and knees) in no time, and i pray for that time to come quickly. much love and good wishes! :)
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 12:03 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! I appreciate you holding us in your heart, and all the many prayers that are coming our way. It means a lot to me.
mysirensong
Jul. 1st, 2006 09:34 pm (UTC)
Wow. The entire time I was reading this I felt the most intense desire to reach out to you, call, hear your voice. I know that sounds weird since we've only just "met" on livejournal, but it was very intense, like an ache. And, yes, when you described her seizure, my mind immediately went to Abby, and Lucy, too, and I thought of how frightened you must have been. I'm praying for all of you. I know Ivy's going to be just fine -- it sounds like it was caught nice and early. Maybe nursing, connecting with her mama in that way, helped Ivy's body to let you know something seriously bad was happening and she needed help quickly -- nursing didn't bring on the seizure, but aren't you glad she was that close to you when it came on? And imagine if she'd just felt a little warm to you and you'd taken an underarm temp and found it to be 99 -- would that have resulted in a chest xray that found pneumonia? Not to say it's a good thing that she had a seizure -- but do you know what I'm trying to express?

What a horribly scary experience. I'll keep praying and sending good thoughts for you all. It sounds like they have caught this pneumonia early on and she's already healing nicely. *hugs*
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 12:09 am (UTC)
*hugs back*

Yes, you're right. I'm so happy that I was there for her. If I'd have gotten up when I meant to, she would have been all alone when it happened, and I might not even have known. And we always get her ready last...so , well, it's just too scary to think about. We know that all is in perfect, divine order. It's just hard to remember that in the middle of it.

Thank you so much for your thoughts & prayers. I'm so glad to know that you thought of me, and wanted that connection with me. I've been wishing for new friends lately, and I'm glad that we found each other. Thank you so much!
lolacat
Jul. 1st, 2006 09:52 pm (UTC)
Oh my God, how awful!! Even when you are familiar with seizures they can be so scary! You did a great job mothering your baby. Good for you and I'm glad Ivy is feeling better.
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 12:12 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! I'm glad you think so. I felt so helpless just sitting there watching it happen. I know that even though she couldn't show it, she knew we were there calling her a 'good girl' (her favorite) and hugging & loving her. She's been wanting to pass back and forth between me and Josh all day. I'm glad she's feeling better too, although I'm scared about tonight. I know that all is well, and hopefully we caught her pneumonia early enough that the worst is over. Thanks again!
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ascadulineadept
Jul. 1st, 2006 10:33 pm (UTC)
Oh, sweetheart ... ! Don't blame yourself at all! Also, we are all (me, my family, my friends) are sending good thoughts and healing vibes. And e-hugs. I'm so sorry you had to go through that ... !
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 12:16 am (UTC)
Thanks so much! I appreciate you passing it on to your family and friends, too. I know she is on the prayer list at church, and apparently at my grandma's church, Silent Unity, and now my best friend's away message has the same appeal for prayers...it's so wonderful knowing that everyone is holding her in their hearts and taking it to God. Thank you so much - it really helps all of us!
(Anonymous)
Jul. 1st, 2006 10:37 pm (UTC)
wonderful mom !
that really scary to me to death ! I am very proud of you and the father of IVY of being take care good of the girls wonderful! I know you are not the prefect mother but there are other mom good to babies and I am very proud of IVY being so strong to be alive! Give her a kiss for me and tell your family I love them !
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 01:19 am (UTC)
Re: wonderful mom !
Oh, this must be David! Thank you so much, sweety! Ivy is strong, and she did such a good job today with all the doctors poking and prodding her. I hope you'll be able to come out soon and give her a kiss yourself! Thanks for coming by my blog.
brihanon
Jul. 1st, 2006 10:56 pm (UTC)
Peace
Thoughts, prayers, nrg and hugs to you and your family. these things happen to the entire family. I see Ivy sealed in green healing light.
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 01:22 am (UTC)
Re: Peace
Thank you so very much! We could definitely use all the prayers, energy, & hugs you want to send our way. I'll tell you, it's been such a day, my brain is zapped - it took me much longer than necessary to figure out what you meant by 'nrg' LOL. Thank you for holding all of us in the light, and especially Ivy. *hugs!*
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