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Ivy's Hospital Scare - Please Pray/Reiki

Josh was supposed to go work for some people from church early this morning, so we were up around 6 am. Ivy was nursing and didn't want to let go, so I stayed in bed with her, waking up slowly. Around 6:30 I tried to get up and she started crying some more, so I switched sides to let her nurse more. She latched on, and was kicking the covers off. The fan was on, so I tried to cover her back up, and then I felt her leg & realized it was burning up. Then all the sudden she started jerking a bit. At first I thought she had one of those scary/falling dreams where you wake up real suddenly and 'startle'... but then I noticed that her eyes kept blinking really fast. I thought "Oh no." Josh is epileptic, and I immediately thought it was a seizure.

I started calling for Josh, but he didn't answer. I realized he was outside feeding the puppies. I picked Ivy up and was cradling her, and her arm just kept jerking and her eyes kept blinking wildly. I heard Josh come in and yelled that I thought something was wrong with the baby. He came running, and I said, "Look, is it a seizure?" And he just took her and told me to call the doctor.

I called, and they took the info and said the on-call doc would call me back (weekend). As I hung up and was waiting, her seizure just got worse and worse. Her whole body was shaking now, and her poor arm kept flailing, and her eyes were rolling around all in her head. I got a cool cloth and put it to her head, and Josh kept running his finger on her cheek saying "Ivy, Ivy baby look at me," but nothing worked. By now it had been about five whole minutes and was only getting worse, so I called 911. I gave the operator all our info while Josh just held her, and her little body just went rigid and her poor eyes were falling around in her head.

I started crying at this point, and the operator's trying to calm me down. He says, "What's she doing now?" And I said, "Man, I told you, she just won't quit! She's convulsing and shaking and seizuring all over the place and it hasn't stopped yet!" And then, dear God, she started foaming and I told the guy and he just said to turn her on her side so she didn't choke.

Well anyway, he wanted to keep me on the line but I told him that we were waiting for the doc to call back so I got off. The doc rang through as soon as I hung up, and as I was talking to her, Ivy seemed to calm down a good bit. Then she started crying, which the doc said was a good sign and for us to go ahead and take her to the emergency room and we'd probably see her there (we didn't). The paramedics came in, but she'd stopped seizuring by now. They said it was actually normal for a baby to do that with a high fever, and she was burning up. They took her sugar & temp, which was 99.7 under the arm (they added a degree), but she was moving so much that I don't think it was a reliable reading. They said she seemed fine and we could probably drive her in ourselves, which they could tell made me nervous. So, sweet things, they said they'd hang out while we got Eden & everything ready to go, just in case. I was freaking, I mean I really really thought I was watching my baby die.

We got everything together as quickly as possible and headed to the ER. We got there probably around 7:30-8, but luckily they were able to give us a room right away. Ivy was still crying a bit, but she didn't look good at all. She couldn't hold her head up, and she couldn't move her eyes. They were stuck to the left. They took her temp there (rectal) and it was over 102. They gave her tylenol & ibuprofen to fight the fever, stressing the fact that it sounded like a fibral seizure - meaning caused from the fever - because Josh is epileptic so we were pretty frightened. I've never seen Josh have one as bad as hers, though (although he's had one grand mal seizure since I met him, I wasn't there to see it). And his never lasted that long, either. I was afraid it did some permanent damage.

Anyway, the medicine really helped. After a bit, she was able to focus her eyes, although they stayed to the left. She smiled at Daddy and said "Good girl" and it broke my heart. We just kept telling her what a good girl she was. She heard sissy playing and tried to look for her, but Josh had to move her around so Eden was on her left. But that made her smile when she saw Eden, and Eden kept saying "Peek-a-boo!" which would make her laugh and then Eden would say, "I playin make the baby feel better".

I felt so bad. I was sitting there, watching her poor head loll around, and I kept thinking "Oh no, I took allergy medicine yesterday. I've been drinking too much coffee. What did I eat yesterday?" You know? I think the fact that it all started when I was nursing her as really scaring me; I just kept thinking it was something *I* did. The medicine knocked her out, but her eyes were red and puffy and she was so, so pale. Grey. I kept remembering all the stories I've read lately of babies passing on, and just yesterday or the day before I read an entry on one friend's journal about a homebirth transfer when they did an ultrasound and only found "a little black heart" - I remembered those words exactly. And then I thought of beautiful little Abby, and even Lucy - who's mom had the good sense to take massive amounts of pictures through her heart surgery ordeal. And all I could think was that we never went and had her pictures done yet, and I'd left my camera at home, and how I couldn't get a picture of her smiling at daddy, and the last memory I would have of her was her head hanging back with her eyes rolling around. And I just cried, and Josh kept telling me not to, to be strong for her and Eden and I kept trying.

Eventually they came and took her for a CAT scan & chest x-rays. Josh went with her while I stayed with Eden. I picked up her little towel - the spit raggy type thing, and I tried to hug it and smell it but it didn't smell like her and that made me cry, too. And Eden asked what's the matter, so I just explained that I was scared because sissy was so sick, and how we needed to give her lots of good energy.

Ivy was sleeping when Josh brought her back, and she slept for a good couple hours. I laid at the foot of the bed, trying not to disturb her. Then I realized her feet were right above my head, so I turned and tried to smell her then, just so I could remember what she smelled like. But I'd cried so much that I couldn't smell, and that made me cry again.

She woke up, though, and looked a lot better. Her eyes were finally moving around, and we played peek-a-boo and she laughed -really laughed- a whole lot. And she could pick her head up, too. She was watching me as I moved around, and then I realized she was *really* watching Eden eat her goldfish. So I laid with her on the bed to nurse her, and she fell right back to sleep.

Another hour or so later the doctor came back and said that the CAT scan looked ok - no permanent damage - but that it looked like there was fluid in her left lung. We caught it in the early stages of pneumonia. The gave her an intramuscular shot of antibiotics, and I must say that she started improving immensely after that. Her eyes really cleared up. The gave us the meds to keep up with, and wrote a prescription for amoxicillin to start tomorrow, and said we could take her home. By the time we left, she was focusing well and able to move her head and both arms. She was still very sleepy & groggy. She's only just now woken up (at 3). She's smiling, though, and talking, although we haven't put her down to see if she can still walk around. She looks ok, though, and I think she'll be able to keep her 'cruising' up if she's not just too weakened from being sick. She's waving & blowing kisses again, so she seems pretty much back to normal. Cranky, but I guess that's to be expected.

So anyway, we're supposed to watch her closely for the next few days. If she shows *any* signs of getting worse, we're supposed to get her back to the ER ASAP. She looks really drained, so it's my hope that she'll keep napping well and get her strength back. I'd still appreciate any prayers and reiki you want to send our way. I already called both the church and Silent Unity (1-816-969-2000 or 1-800-669-7729) from the hospital. The chaplain I spoke with at Silent Unity said an amazingly awesome prayer with me, and I was so grateful and it truly helped me so much. I highly recommend calling them, even if you're not a Unitic. I've actually called them several times, and they pray with you on the phone and then put your (or Ivy's, in this case) name up on the wall there at Unity Village and people pray for them for 24 hours a day for 30 days. It's an amazing ministry.

Ok, if you got this far, thanks for reading. My online time will likely be spotty for a while, so that's why. I'll keep everyone posted as to how she fares. Just please hold us in your hearts. Thank you!

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times_suspended
Jul. 1st, 2006 10:56 pm (UTC)
Oh, lovely. Children being ill is hard because it's our nature to just fix things - and when we can't, it's enough to drive us insane.

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Please keep us updated and remember to breathe. *hugs*
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 01:25 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! Yeah, it's been totally insane. Such a day - I feel hollow. My mom says I sound super-calm on the phone, and I just said that I think it's shock. lol. Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers! We really appreciate them. Breathing is a great idea. I may try to meditate or something tonight.

*hugs back*
asphixiapixia
Jul. 1st, 2006 11:14 pm (UTC)
Sending all the radiant, healing, light I can for the little lady. It is a terrifying thing you went through.

When Carissa was about one and a half, Justin wasn't paying attention and opened my back door, hitting her in the head with the door. She had a seizure and stopped breathing for about 30-40 seconds. I had to do mouth to mouth. Although it was only a few short moments, it seemed like hours until she started breathing again. Anyway my point is I can relate to how horribly shaken you must have been and must still be.

Try to think of the seizure as a blessing. You might not have caught the pneumonia so fast if the only issue had been the fever. I am glad she is doing better now sweetie.

*all my love*
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 01:28 am (UTC)
Oh my gosh, it sounds like what Carissa went through was even scarier! I feel blessed that at least Ivy was able to keep breathing the whole time. I can imagine how awful that must have been. I do think of it as a blessing - but it's easier to do so knowing that it appeared to cause no permanent damage. The way she looked at the hospital ... well, I won't even put that out there, but I imagine you know what my worries were. Thank you so much for your healing energies AND your love. I appreciate it beyond words.
dorianeldritch
Jul. 1st, 2006 11:25 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad shes doing better-thats wonderful you caught the pneumonia when you did! I havent learned reiki yet but i will keep you all in my prayers.
I dont know if this works for little babies but when i have pneumonia my best friend beats or knocks/thumps on my back in the lung area and it helps the stuff to break up and be cleared out quicker. Prolly with a little one just drumming your fingers on her back while you are holding her would do much the same thing.
She sounds like a tough little girl but what an awful scare:-(
(((HUGS)))
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 01:30 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! I know that prayers are powerful, and it makes me feel so blessed to know that everyone is holding her in their hearts and helping give it up to God. I'll try your suggestion about drumming my fingers on her back. I've been doing a lot of hugging/patting/rubbing on her today. I'll do it mindfully tomorrow and see if it helps her. Thanks again! *hugs!*
bulletslc
Jul. 2nd, 2006 12:13 am (UTC)
Ooooooo, take care.....all my love to you and your family!!!!

ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 01:31 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! We appreciate all the love being sent our way.
nedia782
Jul. 2nd, 2006 02:14 am (UTC)
I got that weird panicy tight chest mommy reaction to your post. Im sorry the little black heart came back to you, that had to be a horrid thing to have pop in your head. I will send as musch positive energy as I can muster. I hope she bounces back to her original self ASAP, and I hope you are able to get some rest as well, that was a very stressful and drainging experience Im sure :( feel better momma, big ((hugs)) to you and yours.
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 02:40 am (UTC)
Oh, don't be sorry! You know how mommy minds were. It just came up when they took her for her chest xray and everything - it seems silly now, but I kept imagining they'd come back with an X-ray that looked like the 'before' picture on How the Grinch Stole Christmas and tell me she didn't make it...Eh, my mind got away with me. Anyway, I'm sorry to spread my icky panic on you. All is well and all is in divine perfect order! Thank you for your love and energy. We all appreciate it beyone measure. *hugs*
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dragynflies
Jul. 2nd, 2006 02:59 am (UTC)
You guys are in my thoughts. I wish I could say something to help, but I can't -- I can't imagine going through what you are going through right now. I hope she continues to improve. **hugs**
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 04:59 am (UTC)
Thanks so much! I appreciate just knowing that folks are out there thinking of her. It will at least help me sleep better. Thank you. *hugs*
felisdemens
Jul. 2nd, 2006 03:01 am (UTC)
Sending good energy Ivy's way.
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 05:01 am (UTC)
Awesome! Thank you so much! We all appreciate it, and I know it's helping her sleep easier - and hopefully keeping her fever down, too. Thank you!
birthingway
Jul. 2nd, 2006 04:54 am (UTC)
So glad she is OK. Prayers going up here....
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 05:02 am (UTC)
Thanks so much! We really appreciate the outpouring of prayers and love. It means a lot.
naicele
Jul. 2nd, 2006 06:36 am (UTC)
i'm not a christian or anything so i can't say prayers/reiki or anything but i offer my well wishes. hope she gets well really soon.

in the meantime, do take care of yourself! you can't take care of her if you don't take care of yourself first!

she'll get better soon. do keep us posted (:
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 12:15 pm (UTC)
Well you certainly don't have to be Christian to pray or do reiki (well, although for reiki you would have to be a Reiki Practitioner), but I do appreciate the well wishes. She's doing a lot better already. Thank you so much!
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ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 12:16 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! We appreciate all the thoughts and prayers. I really think all the prayers she's receiving is what's made her bounce back so quickly. Thank you so much! *hugs*
(Anonymous)
Jul. 2nd, 2006 02:36 pm (UTC)
I am so glad she is ok! I will keep her and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

Aubrey

ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 03:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much for coming by, Aubrey. She is doing better, but still not quite out of the woods yet. We appreciate your thoughts & prayers.
interactiveleaf
Jul. 2nd, 2006 02:53 pm (UTC)
That child is so lucky to have people who care for her so much right there. Y'all showed good sense and did all the right things even while you were terrified. Kudos; the world needs more parents like you.
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 03:56 pm (UTC)
Oh, thank you so much! It's nice to hear that someone thinks so. While it was all happening, I just felt so helpless. You've made my morning. :D
lovesprout
Jul. 2nd, 2006 06:32 pm (UTC)
ohh my jeez...sending reiki your way!
ahavah
Jul. 2nd, 2006 06:41 pm (UTC)
Thank you so very much! We'll take all of it we can get.
citrinepoint
Jul. 3rd, 2006 01:03 am (UTC)
Oh honey I'm so sorry. I'm sending Reiki right away. One thing I try to do sometimes when a crisis has passed is send myself reiki into the past. Anyhow I'll be sending you reiki into the past and present. Use as you wish!
*hugs*
ahavah
Jul. 3rd, 2006 02:16 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! I know it's helped her. She's a little Reiki Master, too, since I was pregnant when I had my Master attunement. I know she can feel all the healing love being sent her way.

I usually do Reiki issues in the past, but I haven't thought to do it yet. I was doing a lot of Reiki *as* it was all happening, but you've given me a good reminder. Maybe it's still too soon, I don't know why I haven't been doing that. It will at least give me some good focus and help transmute it to the positive!

Thanks again! *hugs*
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kyndirishfairy
Jul. 3rd, 2006 04:15 am (UTC)
omg! *big loving squeezies*
I cant imagine what that must have been like. My heart sank as I read this. You and Ivy will definitely be in my thoughts. I'm glad she's looking better and i hope she does nothing but continue to get better.
ahavah
Jul. 3rd, 2006 08:17 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! We really appreciate everyone holding us in the light. She is improving, although I'm still scared and being a bit overprotective. Thanks again, you're such a sweetie! *Big love back!*
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